Not always obvious

I like to do meme busters but I also recognize when a meme hits a hard truth and puts into words what I did not want to say.  Someone posted that this was obvious but for me before counseling it wasn’t You don’t need to set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm. Actually…

Multifaceted Challenge

I put off for days writing this post.  How can I write about a problem that I haven’t solved?  My DH pointed out yesterday how painful it is for him to watch me self abuse my body by not eating healthy foods, staying up extremely late, and generallly doing this that are harmful for my…

Do you BELIEVE?

In me…..nope-nope-nope. 8. I struggle with believing in myself. As many times as trusted loved ones have told me I’m beautiful, loving, and smart, I find myself completely unable to believe them. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy’s response to this statement: https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2017/11/09/self-care-8-of-25/ Even though Judy and I were raised by the same parents are roles in the family…

I’m sorry

  Thank you for being patient with me while I am working on the costumes.  I enjoyed watching Todd’s video on how often I do say I’m sorry and in the back of my mind I am feeling that I am apologizing for existing.  I am working on this.  One of my children pointed out…

Self Esteem Challenge

A survivor of child abuse knows that their self esteem bucket had holes punched all over it…Some of their buckets were run over by a semi-truck and trailer.  Some abuse survivors can still hear the ‘beep, beep, beep’ of that truck backing up.  Words like what Pavelka mentions for his toolbox seem like a foreign…