Do you BELIEVE?

In me…..nope-nope-nope. 8. I struggle with believing in myself. As many times as trusted loved ones have told me I’m beautiful, loving, and smart, I find myself completely unable to believe them. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy’s response to this statement: https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2017/11/09/self-care-8-of-25/ Even though Judy and I were raised by the same parents are roles in the family…

Eat your Vegetables

Self-care #7loaded with triggers for me. 7. Preparing and eating healthy meals. I know how to, I know I deserve it, I can plan it and even sometimes manage to buy the groceries, but I freeze when it comes to the “doing” which doesn’t even bring me to “the eating”. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy’s perspective is linked…

4 perspectives

Every so often when I am planning a post, more perspectives come to my attention.  I am continuing addressing the different ways that are obvious and not so obvious self-care issues from CPTSD/PTSD.  This is the link to the original article: https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Today’s discussion is from #6 To stop always saying “sorry” (for nothing) and…

All emotions

I lived without emotions for quite a while.  I would file them under the ‘do not disturb box.’  I did this for a good reason.  Growing up in a home where being ’emotional’ was like the worse thing you could do, I stifled my emotions more and more.  Did not help growing up being a…

Struck a chord

Every so often I read something that resonates with me and how I am feeling.  For those people that are offended by swearing, please stop reading now.  For the rest of you, I am sharing David Goggins post on Facebook.  My sister introduced me to his blog and shares his posts.  Tonight I needed this…

Feelings?

I wasn’t allowed to have feelings or they were purposely and maliciously twisted for the purposes of my abusers.  Stop the feelings – stop my abusers controlling me.   This brings me to self care #5 Allowing myself to feel all emotions – joy and anger are the most difficult for me. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/   Judy’s…

Basic self-care missing

Routines are built to get things done.  Most people don’t write down basics like shower, get dressed, eat.  They don’t need to.  They simply do them every day without fail.  Not so with an abuse survivor.  CPTSD disables a person from believing that they should be taken care of by themselves or anyone else. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/…