We would all fly off the planet. This past year is beyond frustrating. I pulled back on everything. I dumped myself into full out survival mode. I played video games and crocheted. I also worked on learning Spanish. However, I am living proof that given enough time I would not clean my craft room. I…
I grew up learning about the Fight-Flight responses to stress. My mother taught us to either run or fight. I watched my brothers polarize their responses…one ran and the other fought every one and every thing. I didn’t feel like I fit either one. Then I learned about Freeze….closer. This is that “deer-in-the-headlights” where you…
This week I started working at work for 2 days. Most people would think, “Why is this post worthy?” First off, my contract doesn’t start until tomorrow. I was called in early. I offered to come in to help with the distribution of computers to students and they decided to take me up on my…
Chatting online one of the concerns brought up are the personality quizzes. I took several. One I took was mandatory because of the type of medical test I was having. (Checking for epilepsy; no, I don’t have it.) I also help our students take different quizzes to find out what they like for possible career…
We had several dogs in our home. One dog was very unusual. A beautiful German Shepherd flunked out of the seeing eye program. The dog found a forever home with us. Before I knew I had PTSD, looking back I realized our dog behaved like a PTSD trained dog without the training. He would nudge…
One of the biggest obstacles I had to over come was my own rejection of my emotions. My hero in high school was Mr. Spock because he had no feelings. I felt totally betrayed when one episode showed him raging with anger. I was told over and over again stupid people got bored. I was…
Yes, I know the whole world feels like it has rested for more than 2 weeks. This is about taking a day of rest to be. Seriously. My counselor observed how hard I worked everyday to get better. Progress was happening but the price to my present day living was taking a toll. He recommended…
Early in my counseling my therapist bluntly told me I was an emotional moron. Wow thanks. But he followed this with the information that I can change this by learning the skills that I didn’t learning as a child. I totally did not comprehend how much I missed out on growing up. I didn’t grow…
A new year, a new beginning, the same pain and the same challenges. I laughed when a teacher at church shared that he does not make New Year Resolutions because he likes to spread his failures out over the whole year. I hate new year resolutions because I hate the sound of them breaking on…
Such an awesome word. Sounds something odd and weird. In a sense, it is. It is our brains ability to change. Scientist are learning that PTSD and CPTSD are forms of brain injuries. Some people feel doomed by this diagnosis. I felt relieved to have a name for my pain. It was no longer a…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 