I try

I try to care for myself but I seem to put hurdles in front of my that make it more difficult.  I am cutting soy out of my diet.  But then I look longingly at the bake goodies that all have soy in them.  Reading the label 20 times does not change the ingredients.  However,…

Self-care, Are you?

What?  I am supposed to self-care?  Don’t I have enough to do caring for everyone else? https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/   Judy, my sister, found this link and shared it on her project/blog. Last round of 25 things my sister wrote after I did.  This time I think I will reverse it and post the link to her…

Not Good Enough

The last quote has two parts.  Blaming myself is part 1, part 2 is the constant feeling I am not good enough.  I’m not good enough parent, I’m not good enough photographer, I’m not good enough computer technician.  The list goes on and on and on.  I see myself as not enough. 23. “Blaming myself…

Sorry for saying sorry

My adult children scolded me for always apologizing, yes, I said I was sorry for saying sorry all the time.  As a child I was blamed for making people angry, for anything bad happening, and a child does think the world revolves around them so therefore they should apologize for bad things happening.  In divorce…

Depression and childhood

I struggle with the fact that I suffer the consequences of another persons mistakes and evil choices.  I get depressed thinking about what a mess my childhood was, most of my life I couldn’t even remember it.   21. “I have major issues with anxiety and depression because of my childhood. The biggest factor is…