I could have told the doctors there was a connection, however, they want proof, the kind you get off an MRI or other scientific proof. They are getting that proof. They are showing there is a link between abusing a child and actual physical long lasting trauma injuries. Those that live it, know it. But…
I spent 10 years in counseling. I lived with PTSD for over 50 years. This past year, I had so much going on in my life I wanted to walk away from everything to do with PTSD. I considered just letting all this go and focus on being a grandma, wife, and teacher’s aid. Delving…
I follow several other survivors working towards healthier living. Their posts inspire, encourage, and sometimes trigger me. I am sharing a link to Roots to Blossom. I took 4 days to read through her analysis as to why she was abused. Then another day to read all the comments. I recommend reading the comments. Ntexas99…
I pondered on one of the oddities of living a life filled with fear. My counselor called it living a fear based life. What stunned him was my reaction when we were discussing death. As our discussion continued he was puzzled by some of my responses. He finally stated, “You are not afraid of dying.” …
Lilly Hope Lucario and I must be on the same wavelength. She wrote about the chronic pain from constantly being on-guard. Never relaxing because I knew that as soon as I let my guard down my abuser would strike. They would persuade me I was safe, I would relax then wham full attack. I was in…
Which came first, the chicken or the egg? Chronic pain is a rarely mentioned side effect or symptom or cause of PTSD. Many days of my life, I wake up, I move, I’m in pain, I’m not dead, therefore, I have to get up. Bummer. I could never figure out what was causing some of…
Rarely show outside scars. Trigger Alert articles may be triggering for some readers. Two articles came to my attention today. One comes from Lilly Hope Lucario sharing how she felt at the beginning of her journey of healing. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/complex-ptsd-is-an-isolating-severe-exhausting-disorder/ Her description so vividly described how I felt so often at the beginning of my healing…
A friend posted a link of what they wanted their daughter to know when things get real. Looks a lot like the list my counselor had me work on to learn to live instead of just survive. Early in my counseling he gave me the challenge “to thrive not just survive.” Game ON!!!! http://www.scarymommy.com/want-my-daughter-know-as-grows-up/ Language…
Growing up with a constant flow of criticism and ways to ‘improve’ myself I have an internal tape that is down right cruel. My sister and I talk often about how to disrupt the negative tapes in our heads. The most interesting experiment is when we played Can-you-top-this with our own negative tapes. Instead of…
Interesting thing about TBI – traumatic brain injury and PTSD – Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is they have many similarities in recovery. Occasionally, they are interchanged and more than one source asserts that PTSD is a traumatic brain injury. My daughter researches her challenges of recovering from a brain tumor removal. This article on Emotional…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 