Emotions Headache connection

I could have told the doctors there was a connection, however, they want proof, the kind you get off an MRI or other scientific proof.  They are getting that proof.  They are showing there is a link between abusing a child and actual physical long lasting trauma injuries.  Those that live it, know it.  But…

Wanting to walk away

I spent 10 years in counseling.  I lived with PTSD for over 50 years.  This past year, I had so much going on in my life I wanted to walk away from everything to do with PTSD.  I considered just letting all this go and focus on being a grandma, wife, and teacher’s aid.  Delving…

He Was WEAK

I follow several other survivors working towards healthier living.  Their posts inspire, encourage, and sometimes trigger me.  I am sharing a link to Roots to Blossom.  I took 4 days to read through her analysis as to why she was abused.  Then another day to read all the comments.  I recommend reading the comments.  Ntexas99…

Losing fear

I pondered on one of the oddities of living a life filled with fear.  My counselor called it living a fear based life.  What stunned him was my reaction when we were discussing death.  As our discussion continued he was puzzled by some of my responses.  He finally stated, “You are not afraid of dying.” …

Tensed muscles

Lilly Hope Lucario and I must be on the same wavelength.  She wrote about the chronic pain from constantly being on-guard.   Never relaxing because I knew that as soon as I let my guard down my abuser would strike.  They would persuade me I was safe, I would relax then wham full attack.  I was in…

Chronic pain

Which came first, the chicken or the egg?  Chronic pain is a rarely mentioned side effect or symptom or cause of PTSD.  Many days of my life, I wake up, I move, I’m in pain, I’m not dead, therefore, I have to get up.  Bummer.  I could never figure out what was causing some of…

Inner Battles….

Rarely show outside scars.     Trigger Alert articles may be triggering for some readers.  Two articles came to my attention today.  One comes from Lilly Hope Lucario sharing how she felt at the beginning of her journey of healing.  https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2013/04/28/complex-ptsd-is-an-isolating-severe-exhausting-disorder/ Her description so vividly described how I felt so often at the beginning of my healing…