My adult children scolded me for always apologizing, yes, I said I was sorry for saying sorry all the time. As a child I was blamed for making people angry, for anything bad happening, and a child does think the world revolves around them so therefore they should apologize for bad things happening. In divorce…
A perfect victim never fights back. I didn’t cut toxic people out of my life either. I just took it. Progress came when I encouraged my husband to find work in another state and move 1000 miles away. But my inner past came with me. I didn’t stand up for myself on anything. 22. “I…
I struggle with the fact that I suffer the consequences of another persons mistakes and evil choices. I get depressed thinking about what a mess my childhood was, most of my life I couldn’t even remember it. 21. “I have major issues with anxiety and depression because of my childhood. The biggest factor is…
The Black Hole/Pit is like quicksand. The more you struggle, the worse it gets. The key is to “float”. Clear your mind and relax your body by learning and practicing Mindfulness. Concentrate on your breathing and body sensations. Allow your feelings to “pass through you and around you” without judgement, without reaction. This…
I wanted to share this link and it posted the whole blog page. Blog stuff still surprises me from time to time. I found it shared on a Facebook page but wanted to get the original person credit. So here is the whole thing. http://ptsdconfessions.tumblr.com/post/159472319606/so-here-are-the-books-sorry-they-look-so-blue
More complex then it first appears. 20. “I have a hard time making eye contact with people. I look away a lot when I’m speaking. I get startled very easily and it takes me awhile to get my heart rate back to normal.” https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ For me, this is two separate issues. Startle response is extreme. …
I learned that emotional abuse is a part of every other abuse and causes the most lasting damage. A child’s emotions are tender and untried an abuser can do extensive damage at a young age. Toxic Parents is one of the best sources that describe the emotional abuse perpetuated by too many parents. 19. “My…
I struggled with reading as a child. I also had a really lousy teacher and almost every student in that class had a major set back. Trauma in the classroom makes it hard to learn. In high school, I changed it all. I worked hard taking difficult classes and graduated in the top 5% of…
*******Warning discussion of suicide******* I learned that I couldn’t continue watching the Star Wars series when they showed how Darth Vader came to be. If it feels too real, it is not entertainment. 17. “[I] won’t let anyone see the ‘bad’ side of myself.” https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ I don’t want people to see the residual…
Of the same problem….Trust. 14. “I avoid asking help from anyone because I don’t trust anyone. I believe if someone offers me a hand, there will always be something they [want to] ask in return. I have friends but I don’t have a best friend. I keep my distance from people. Automatically, my wall blocks…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 