Sorry for saying sorry

My adult children scolded me for always apologizing, yes, I said I was sorry for saying sorry all the time.  As a child I was blamed for making people angry, for anything bad happening, and a child does think the world revolves around them so therefore they should apologize for bad things happening.  In divorce…

Perfect victim

A perfect victim never fights back.  I didn’t cut toxic people out of my life either.  I just took it.  Progress came when I encouraged my husband to find work in another state and move 1000 miles away.  But my inner past came with me.  I didn’t stand up for myself on anything. 22. “I…

Depression and childhood

I struggle with the fact that I suffer the consequences of another persons mistakes and evil choices.  I get depressed thinking about what a mess my childhood was, most of my life I couldn’t even remember it.   21. “I have major issues with anxiety and depression because of my childhood. The biggest factor is…

Black hole survival

    The Black Hole/Pit is like quicksand. The more you struggle, the worse it gets. The key is to “float”. Clear your mind and relax your body by learning and practicing Mindfulness. Concentrate on your breathing and body sensations. Allow your feelings to “pass through you and around you” without judgement, without reaction. This…