We would all fly off the planet. This past year is beyond frustrating. I pulled back on everything. I dumped myself into full out survival mode. I played video games and crocheted. I also worked on learning Spanish. However, I am living proof that given enough time I would not clean my craft room. I…
One of the things I learned during my years of counseling is depression acts much like a dense fog covering everything and obscuring my view from all else except the smothering depression. Since the mask mandate in our area, I am struggling with the worse depression I felt in a long time. It took a…
My counselor asked me why didn’t I tell? At first I didn’t know, because I didn’t remember. To help me get in touch with my feelings he gave me a children’s coloring book about feelings to use. Color this page happy and what color is sad and so on then came the page “What would…
Today on one of the Facebook pages a person on the CPTSD page wondered why she was feeling so stressed when she liked to stay home. I pointed out to her that there is a big difference between choosing to stay home and being trapped at home. Death threats if you don’t comply. Accusations of…
I was the family scapegoat until my sister was born. Then that role was transferred to her while I was given the family care giver role. However, both my sister and I were blamed for negative things in the family. My father’s worse insult was to call someone a “Girrrl.” To him, there was nothing…
Quick definition of emotional abuse: http://dayoneservices.org/what-is-emotional-abuse/ This one is the hardest to recognize for me and the slowest to heal because of the constant erosion of my self worth; I felt their assessment was me. Took many counseling sessions to start breaking through the abusive fog of self doubt, self condemnation, and believing their view…
In the media, online and gossip around me have some fairly messed up ideas about PTSD. PTSD/CPTSD is not rudeness, cruelty to others, or criminal behavior. Recently, I heard someone say that the reason a person was so rude was because they were mentally ill. WRONG. Missing social skills, yes. Lack of proper upbringing, yes. …
WARNING!!!! Today’s post is a rant. If this is triggering or uncomfortable for you, skip today’s post. Have a blessed day. We have a sweet and kind custodian that takes care of our classroom. She is so gentle. Friday she walked in when the teacher and I were talking about next…
Occasionally, the computer crashes and I totally lose a post. I decided sometime ago I needed a different approach. Attempt number 2. There are 3 things sometimes attributed to PTSD/CPTSD that are not symptoms: rudeness, cruelty, and criminal behavior. Raised in an abusive home, especially where emotional abuse is present, leaves a child missing basic…
My sister and I walk and talk almost every Saturday. We end the walk with breakfast at P.Croissant. (Really yummy and soy free!) We share with each other our week. We live very different lives but we share history and understand each other. We chat about the things we write in posts, how events effect…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 