Unruly emotions

A minor annoying experience suddenly goes haywire with emotions that are over-the-top extreme flashback.  I am no longer a confident adult but a cringing terrified/angry/helpless child. I know logically that the event did not warrant the level of emotion that washed over me like tsunami.  Several of these stood out in my memory.  When I…

Emotion Regulation is not

Stopping or cutting off emotions.  Dissociation/cutting off emotions is like freezing frogs….as soon as you thaw them they are hopping all over just the same.  Why do I know this?  I used dissociation to obliterate anger and other negative emotions.  Sadly it did the same thing to love and happiness…only the emotions didn’t go away,…

Aloneness

Lonely in a crowd.  Seeing everyone else chat and interact and feeling like I live in a glass bubble.  The feeling of being different, out of step, longing to feel included…how can I see anything good in feeling so isolated and alone? I started my own group that included others.  I did it, we had…

Inner Critic

One of the more common topics of discussion on several PTSD/CPTSD web pages and posts is about the Inner Critic.  That little voice in your head that keep pointing out and dwelling on every mistake ever made by that person. Someone on Facebook posted this image about criticism…     This is what I do…

Post not written

Hi all, today I planned out this entire post and worked out the wording and now, blank, nothing, nada, zip. Heavy sigh.  I sometimes have these brilliant ideas for posts but when it is time to write them my brain deleted it.  Yup. No recovery.  I used to fret about this until I realized that…

Baby-steps

First of the year we are bombarded with meme’s to set goals, make resolutions, embrace the change and get moving.  For many years I hung my head in shame and gave up on January 2, because I was going to break those resolutions anyway, may as well get it over with as quickly as possible. …