Hiding the ‘Dark Side’

*******Warning discussion of suicide*******     I learned that I couldn’t continue watching the Star Wars series when they showed how Darth Vader came to be.  If it feels too real, it is not entertainment. 17. “[I] won’t let anyone see the ‘bad’ side of myself.” https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ I don’t want people to see the residual…

Different Facets

Of the same problem….Trust. 14. “I avoid asking help from anyone because I don’t trust anyone. I believe if someone offers me a hand, there will always be something they [want to] ask in return. I have friends but I don’t have a best friend. I keep my distance from people. Automatically, my wall blocks…

Prepare for Fireworks

If you live in the United States, July 4th is a fireworks holiday.  How can a person with PTSD prepare for the day? Accept that the sound of fireworks is triggering.  If possible, go to a place where fireworks are not allowed. Other coping ideas: Ear plugs, stay in doors, head phones that can block…

Hermits and trust

I threatened my counselor that I would become a hermit.  It was easier in my mind than dealing with all the scary people around me all the time.  Wanting to be a hermit was tied to my not trusting people.  What to do? What to do? 6. “I’m basically a hermit. My home is my…

Compliments

I did it for years.  I negated every and any compliment I received.  If someone said I did something well, I pointed out what I messed up.  Every compliment was turned aside or ignored.  I wouldn’t….couldn’t see myself as a good person, so compliments must be a lie.  Turned my world upside down and inside…

Debunking PTSD myths

I took a PTSD quiz and missed one of the questions.  Really, I live it every day.  Then I realized that the question I missed is a common myth about children living in abuse.  The question asked how students do in school.  I answered get top grades.  Nope the correct answer was get into trouble…