Nobody guessed

How really messed up I was.  I excelled at the hiding game.  Our children were the first ones to really notice a recurring theme that their mother was not the same in all situations.  One of them accused me of lying.  I was appalled. When I entered counseling and discovered the dance between personalities that…

Symptoms and Learning

The past week I encountered a variety of web pages sharing different perspectives on symptoms of complex PTSD. The first one is from a known source The Mighty.  This page hosts sections of their page devoted to different challenges.  Their articles are often thought provoking and challenging.  To me, for the most part, fairly accurate. …

Connecting to feelings

I was asked how did I reconnect to my feelings…….This is my response. My counselor worked with me for years but there are a few basics that made a big difference. Rule #1 Stop lying, especially to yourself. Emotions are messy and temporary. Ignoring them, they will go away taking happiness, contentment and joy with…

Hoarding

I have one room that looks like it could be featured on hoarders.  I work to clean it up, I get overwhelmed, and with in a week or two I am in worse of a mess than before.  Thanks to DH I keep it mostly to one room.  I didn’t have any problem when I…

Don’t let nobody wrinkle your Smooth

Inspiration can come from many sources.  “Don’t let nobody wrinkle your smooth” is wisdom from the Stickman in this video.  By example he demonstrates how art blesses lives of those creating it. https://inspirationbygod.net/3843/the-wisdom-of-king-solomon-and-the-stick-man/ Recently I am facing challenges that are results from someone else facing their challenge.  I was getting really upset last night by…

Relief

Facing my fears sometimes reduces them to miniature.  Other times with the help of a knowledgeable person I am able to make realistic choices that fit into my life.  I am given another new challenge that is listed as wait and see.  I am learning to be very comfortable with wait and see. Patience is…