Can’t have both ways

I am watching a trend among those with Complex PTSD.  They want to claim loud and clear that they coped with difficult things and do not have mental illness.  They rage when they are ‘misdiagnosed’  and won’t listen, if you try to explain that insurance companies only pay for therapy if it is in the…

Scapegoating

I was the family scapegoat until my sister was born.  Then that role was transferred to her while I was given the family care giver role.  However, both my sister and I were blamed for negative things in the family.  My father’s worse insult was to call someone a “Girrrl.”  To him, there was nothing…

CPTSD video

  I put in the link and it automatically embedded itself on to my page.  I believe this is one of the clearest short answer to the question What is Complex PTSD, this segement does not go into how to manage it but does clarify how it is defined by insurance companies and other professionals. …

Fawning

I grew up learning about fight or flight ad nauseam.  I blew it off.  I didn’t fight, I didn’t run.  I figured it didn’t apply to me, which in a way it didn’t.  I eventually learned about freeze.  Then I read an article by Peter Walker outlining the 4 F’s: Fight, Flight, Freeze and Fawn. …

Another shift

My son-in-law teaches people about how to shift their paradigm….I’ve read along and nodded my head; then it struck me, I need another paradigm shift.  For those not familiar with paradigm, it is the thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors that we live by.  Many of these beliefs and behaviors started in childhood.  If you had a…

Grief and happiness coexists

Dissociation from my emotions is a symptom of PTSD/CPTSD.  I was numb.  I didn’t feel pain but I didn’t feel happiness either.  I was so completely detached from my feelings that I couldn’t tell you at any given moment what I felt.  I knew I had feelings….sometimes I was happy and sometimes I felt bone…