Hermits and trust

I threatened my counselor that I would become a hermit.  It was easier in my mind than dealing with all the scary people around me all the time.  Wanting to be a hermit was tied to my not trusting people.  What to do? What to do? 6. “I’m basically a hermit. My home is my…

Always messing up

I feel like these two go hand-in-hand.  Rarely do you see one without the other.  Abusers do their fair share of convincing their victims all bad things are the victims fault.  A steady diet of blame the victim eventually the victim believes they are the ones that are the problem.   4. “I always feel…

Overachieving

I started in high school.  I was tired of name calling, stupid, ding-a-ling, lights are on but nobody is home.  I wanted to ‘prove’ I was smart.  I studied like crazy and got straight A’s.  I was thrilled and so excited…the name calling persisted.  I maintained a 3.79 grad point average without weighted grades.  I…

Compliments

I did it for years.  I negated every and any compliment I received.  If someone said I did something well, I pointed out what I messed up.  Every compliment was turned aside or ignored.  I wouldn’t….couldn’t see myself as a good person, so compliments must be a lie.  Turned my world upside down and inside…

Your Life Matters

I’ve joined a PTSD Facebook page.  This was one of the ideas to help remind yourself for self-protection.  Ashley kindly gave me permission to share. Thank you Ashley I put on some dollar store temporary tattoos to help keep me safe tonight. I’ve had the worst weekend due to the holiday and have an extensive…