What I do struggle with

I thought a lot about what I wrote over the past couple of days.  The articles looking for an easy answer, the one about people oversimplifying problems, and my rant.  I realize that every single abuse survivor walks around with a different set of scars and reactions to the World.  I am making this list…

Exhausted

I’m exhausted….but when I fall asleep I only sleep a short time before waking again.  If I sleep earlier, I wake up earlier.  If I actually do starting getting more sleep…..nightmares increase.  Insomnia sucks, a lot.  I actually researched sleep, read books on it and I learned that not enough sleep alone can cause severe…

Collapse

I push my body and push my body until I collapse.  I put up with this since I was 15 years old.  I am going a long, then bam my entire system shuts down.  Happened in the car today and yes I was driving.  Thank my overworked guardian angel, I didn’t hit anything or anyone. …

Chart for Kids

Kids experience PTSD.  Too often instead of recognizing PTSD children are labeled over sensitive, trouble makers, or other acting out behaviors.  I came across a sheet of tips for parents and teachers about PTSD in children.  Many of the suggestions work for adults too. http://cdpsdocs.state.co.us/safeschools/Resources/CDE%20Building%20Bridges/PTSDTipSheet81310.pdf Update: Be careful following some of the links.  I discovered…

Need more

sphincter muscles.  Yup.  All week I worked on a list of vocabulary words for school.  One was sphincter muscle.  The explanation was long and almost as confusing.  I had a 3rd column that gave a short more direct answer.  This morning I stared at the word then burst out laughing.  I knew I couldn’t use…

To the Pain

A challenge in “Princess Bride” rather than a fight to the death it would be a fight to the pain.  The description stayed vivid in my mind.  The implication is death is preferred to pain and pain must be avoided at all cost.  Through my life experience I learned that isn’t always true.  When I…