All emotions

I lived without emotions for quite a while.  I would file them under the ‘do not disturb box.’  I did this for a good reason.  Growing up in a home where being ’emotional’ was like the worse thing you could do, I stifled my emotions more and more.  Did not help growing up being a…

Feelings?

I wasn’t allowed to have feelings or they were purposely and maliciously twisted for the purposes of my abusers.  Stop the feelings – stop my abusers controlling me.   This brings me to self care #5 Allowing myself to feel all emotions – joy and anger are the most difficult for me. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/   Judy’s…

I’m sorry

  Thank you for being patient with me while I am working on the costumes.  I enjoyed watching Todd’s video on how often I do say I’m sorry and in the back of my mind I am feeling that I am apologizing for existing.  I am working on this.  One of my children pointed out…

Amazing Anne

Field trip at school gave me the opportunity to listen to Anne Grady, the keynote speaker.  She is funny, real and gets it.  I bought both her books and she signed them.  🙂  First book is Strong Enough- Choosing Courage, Resilience and Triumph. The second book is 52 strategies for Live, Love, & Work.  One…

What to do with anger?

My counselor taught me that anger is a secondary emotion, hurt, fear, and frustration come first. If your therapist is willing let them walk you through pealing back the anger to explore the hurt you have felt, the fear generated from your experiences, and frustration that people don’t change. Another part of the package is…