Looked it up

I am a member of a CPTSD group on Facebook.  Someone posed the question what is the difference between a panic attack and an anxiety attack.  My gut feeling is a panic attack is like a spike in fear that is difficult or impossible to control….anxiety attack is the struggle I go with many days…

Change hyper-vigilance

To something deeper, discernment. I follow Lilly Hope Lucario on Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD A journey to healing from complex trauma.  The article I read is about turning hyper-vigilance into discernment. This is her link:  https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2016/09/11/turning-hypervigilance-into-discernment-is-healing-lilly-hope-lucario/ For many people this is a sticky area because discernment has to do with judgement. http://www.thefreedictionary.com/discernment dis·cern·ment (dĭ-sûrn′mənt)…

The Buck Stops With You!

I am going to respond to Pavelka Health Revolution Pavelka Toolkit The only person who is responsible for your life is YOU! That may sound harsh but it can also be enlightening as YOU have control over YOU and nobody else – so if something does not feel right you can change it. This is…

Endings and beginnings

One month ends and another begins…it is the last month of the year so it is the beginning of the end.  One of the toughest things about PTSD is fearing change.  PTSD is doable with routines.  Routines for everything.  The slightest shuffle or slightest bump in my schedule can send me for a tail spin. …

What really matters?

I believe in many ways this is the pivotal question that gets distorted in an abuse situation.  What really matters was all about appeasing my abuser to survive one more day.  What really matters was second guessing and jumping through hoops hoping I made it through them fast enough before the boom fell.  Violence and…

Who’s responsibility is it?

One thing I learned from reading other people’s blogs is the problem of deciding, “Who’s responsibility is it?”  Many people that feel overwhelmed and exhausted often take on the responsibilities of others.  From an early age, I was taught to care for my mother instead of expecting my mother to care for me.  I took…