Growing instead ……

Many times I would read about ‘releasing trauma’.  Many times I didn’t get it because mine didn’t feel that way.  Tonight I read an awesome post that shared another analogy that I really like.  Thank you Jeann for your willingness to share. Jeann Kezelman TOPIC: “Developmental Trauma CANNOT be released, instead it must be RE-PATTERNED”…

Looked it up

I am a member of a CPTSD group on Facebook.  Someone posed the question what is the difference between a panic attack and an anxiety attack.  My gut feeling is a panic attack is like a spike in fear that is difficult or impossible to control….anxiety attack is the struggle I go with many days…

I can be

flexible without getting bent out of shape. At school our principal challenged us to do something new this year.  Gear it up.  I decided with the many changes and different request I decided that I would not let all the changes bend me out of shape.  One of the challenges for a person living with…

Trusting Friends

Back in September my sister Judy shared an article on self-care.  I decided to write my perspective and share her link but then life happened for both of us.  I am not complaining or sad, it just happened.  A lot of what happened was good and awesomeness.  She got back on track with sharing her…

Run Run as fast as you can

I quit sewing costumes for plays years ago because they get so crazy with fittings, alterations, sewing, and planning… sounds like reverse order but that is how crazy plays can get.  I volunteered to help with a Christmas musical at church thinking it would have at the most a dozen parts.  Oops.  A cast of…

Breathe deep the Gathering gloom

Moody Blues Lyrics “Late Lament” Breathe deep the gathering gloom, Watch lights fade from every room. Bedsitter people look back and lament, Another day’s useless energy spent. Impassioned lovers wrestle as one, Lonely man cries for love and has none. New mother picks up and suckles her son, Senior citizens wish they were young. Cold…

Tips for Understanding

I talk openly about living with PTSD.  Sometimes I am with my husband, DH Darling Husband.  When we are together in contributes to the conversation and refers to OUR journey.  His perspective is of seeing me suffer and work so hard and not being able to help.  Or wanting to be there for me even…

Nightmares and lack of sleep

I have nightmares.  I always had nightmares.  When I was little I would complain about my nightmares and I was told they would go away when I grew up.  They didn’t go away, therefore, I never grew up. When I started counseling, I averaged 3 hours of sleep per night.  That meant at least half…