Taking back Joy

Not sure how to start this post.  I looked up my original wording and the connotation is totally different from what I meant.  I’ll try starting at the beginning. Caution – deep difficult subject. My mother raised me in a fear based living system.  Everything I did was geared to avoid being hit or berated. …

Changed my lens

I was asked a question I am struggling with how to write the answer, “What would you like therapists to know?” The first counselor I worked with was so extraordinary I had a hard time saying anything.  He understood me in ways that I didn’t understand about myself.  He led me to answers, allowing me…

Know where you are going

Alice asked the Cheshire Cat which road she should take: “Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here? The Cheshire Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to. Alice: I don’t much care where. The Cheshire Cat: Then it doesn’t much matter which way…

Back to blogging

I hadn’t planned on an extended break.  I could handle this and everything else.  I was sooooo wrong.  I spent the last 3 months swallowed up by costumes for this show. This is our cast.  Each one played two and sometimes 3 parts.  Thankful for those that helped but blown away that I was in…

An advantage

I grew up with no social media.  I couldn’t text, surf or blog because none of that existed.  Saved me from posting a lot of dumb stuff. 25. “Several things, but the main one was lashing out on social media for years. Controversial and angry statuses, just due to the anger inside of me. I…

Melt Down

I finally had my melt down.  I started spiraling down down down last February.  Yesterday DH helped me melt down at last.  There is something about rock bottom that helps me back up again.  It is like I can’t stop the spiral down until I hit a low low enough to stop, catch my breath,…