Boiling Water

Some themes, poems, stories and experiences stick with me, mulling them over and over.  I take them out and reread them and consider their import….why do I keep thinking about some of these?  One such story is The Potato, the egg and Hot chocolate (I like it better than coffee in the original story.) Story…

Victor vs Victim

I saw myself as small, helpless, dominated, squashed….a worm with no back bone.  If anyone called me a victor I would look at them very strangely.  I did not see myself in a positive light.  Yet, I believed I could change.  I chose change, lots of change. As I changed, I started looking at different…

Helplessness

To me, this was the hardest to overcome but once I did, learning about my own power is a key element to my continued healing.  As long as I believed I was helpless, I could not believe I could be responsible for my change.  I needed to take back my power.  I needed to believe…

12 Symptoms

People sometimes ask, “What is the difference between PTSD and Complex PTSD?”  Fast explanation, “It is the same difference between a simple broken leg and a compound fracture.”  Some people explain it has to do with age, duration, care taker vs stranger, and other external influences that complicate the person’s reaction.  I follow Lilly Hope…

Accepting doesn’t mean staying

This is a mini rant…..if you do not feel up to reading a rant today…tune in tomorrow when I hope to be in a better mood… Today I read a fellow PTSD group member accept where he was at right now.  Cool great.  Applause.  Then in my estimation, he totally blew it by exclaiming this…

Document, document, document

Many times I am told that I am over sensitive, imagining things, and at fault for feeling like bad things are happening.  People, sometimes bad things are happening.  Too often, the person telling you it is not bad is the one that is hurting you.  I read several times on a group for CPTSD that…