Introverts

One of the fascinating things I learned from one of the classes at school is that some of my responses to the world is not about PTSD/CPTSD at all.  I am an introvert.  I crave home alone time.  I need time by myself to recharge my batteries.  Sometimes my no peopling days is more about…

Resilience Myths

I get access to several computer blogs about education since I work at a high school.  I follow and keep track of trends and information about PTSD/CPTSD.  One of the subjects I am studying is resilience.  This article by By Elena Aguilar tackles 4 myths that people believe about resilience of a teacher.  Follow the…

Live like you’ll die tomorrow

Is the worse advice.  They imply that you should live each day to the fullest because tomorrow you might die.  Perhaps.  Too many take this advice then they don’t die and have no plans for their own future.  When I was 16 I didn’t believe I would live to see 18.  I lived moment by…

Boiling Water

Some themes, poems, stories and experiences stick with me, mulling them over and over.  I take them out and reread them and consider their import….why do I keep thinking about some of these?  One such story is The Potato, the egg and Hot chocolate (I like it better than coffee in the original story.) Story…

Victor vs Victim

I saw myself as small, helpless, dominated, squashed….a worm with no back bone.  If anyone called me a victor I would look at them very strangely.  I did not see myself in a positive light.  Yet, I believed I could change.  I chose change, lots of change. As I changed, I started looking at different…

Helplessness

To me, this was the hardest to overcome but once I did, learning about my own power is a key element to my continued healing.  As long as I believed I was helpless, I could not believe I could be responsible for my change.  I needed to take back my power.  I needed to believe…

12 Symptoms

People sometimes ask, “What is the difference between PTSD and Complex PTSD?”  Fast explanation, “It is the same difference between a simple broken leg and a compound fracture.”  Some people explain it has to do with age, duration, care taker vs stranger, and other external influences that complicate the person’s reaction.  I follow Lilly Hope…