What if you don’t know what is wrong with you. I first noticed that there was something different about me when I was a teenager. I listened to my friends talk about crushes, school, and family I felt totally out of the loop. I was fascinated by their perspective but my concerns and worries didn’t…
Living is fear is not new to me. My counselor pointed out I lived a fear based life. My childhood revolved around jumping through ever changing hoops to avoid some punishment. Then there were the weirdness of some punishments I preferred. If I complained about eating a meal with bell pepper in it, I would…
Yes, my abusers went to the same church as I did. I was blamed by people at church. I experienced victim shaming at church. There are unpleasant people at church. So why do I still attend church? My relationship with God, the Father and Jesus Christ are not about them. I felt the promptings of…
Faith is a tricky thing. First off, not everyone believes it is the same thing. The computer dictionary shares this on faith: complete trust or confidence in someone or something; strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof. From the article: “Complex trauma survivors often endure…
An integral part of healing. Gratitude helps me see the good things in a day. Gratitude helps me see the good in me. I started counting blessings. Lots of them. I did the blessing a day for a month and barely scratched the surface. Then someone pointed out that counting blessings was putting a limit…
We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience. Pierre Teilhard de Chardin Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/pierre_teilhard_de_chardi_160888 I believe there is a 4th aspect that is often ignored, our spiritual welfare. Sadly, abusers do terrible things proclaiming that God is backing them. Religious abuse is…
I was once asked by a counselor what aspects of my life were impacted by PTSD. Simple answer, “All of it.” There is not one part of my life left untouched by PTSD, or some people are calling multiple event trauma Complex PTSD. I struggled with understanding how deeply I am affected. I was raised…
One of the most insidious and long reaching abuses is often completely ignored or denied. That is religious abuse. My definition is taking the concept of Heavenly Father, God, and twist it to mean something so horrible that either a person fears God to the point of being unwilling to study the scriptures or pray,…
For weeks, I’ve written about the importance of self-care. Now it is time for me to practice what I preach. Deep sadness came to our family when our little granddaughter lived less than an hour. We knew ahead of time. I tried to prepare. I underestimated the impact of one tiny little girl. We said…
A childhood book laid the ground work for the massive weight of guilt about taking even a moment off from childcare. #14 Taking a day off from childcare without worrying constantly or feeling guilty. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy wrote her perspective https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2017/11/21/self-care-14-of-25/ She pointed out that bad things did happen while she was a way. People that…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 