Every Part of my Life

I was once asked by a counselor what aspects of my life were impacted by PTSD.  Simple answer, “All of it.” There is not one part of my life left untouched by PTSD, or some people are calling multiple event trauma Complex PTSD.  I struggled with understanding how deeply I am affected.  I was raised…

Contradictions in Religion

One of the most insidious and long reaching abuses is often completely ignored or denied.  That is religious abuse. My definition is taking the concept of Heavenly Father, God, and twist it to mean something so horrible that either a person fears God to the point of being unwilling to study the scriptures or pray,…

Practice What I Preach

For weeks, I’ve written about the importance of self-care.  Now it is time for me to practice what I preach.  Deep sadness came to our family when our little granddaughter lived less than an hour.  We knew ahead of time.  I tried to prepare.  I underestimated the impact of one tiny little girl.  We said…

Horton Hatches an Egg

A childhood book laid the ground work for the massive weight of guilt about taking even a moment off from childcare. #14 Taking a day off from childcare without worrying constantly or feeling guilty. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy wrote her perspective https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2017/11/21/self-care-14-of-25/ She pointed out that bad things did happen while she was a way.  People that…

Self forgiveness

Months ago, I read this article on self-care, then I immersed myself in a huge costume project that self care came so far down the list I was down right mean to myself.  I focused on finishing, DH(darling husband) made sure I ate and sewed for me when others decided the project was too big…

Humility

The one thing that as soon as you think you got it, you lose it.  Too many times I confuse humility with humiliated.  I am needing to sort this in my head after listening to inspiring talks about the necessity of humility.  As a child, I was humiliated often.  Actions and behaviors of others that…

Advantage of religion

Every bit of research I’ve read on PTSD and religion is that those with some belief in a Supreme Being have the advantage.  They believe there is something more, something bigger than this one moment.  I had nightmares most of last night I woke up and was thankful to be awake.  Sleep is highly overrated. …