Question of Church

Yes, my abusers went to the same church as I did. I was blamed by people at church.  I experienced victim shaming at church.  There are unpleasant people at church.  So why do I still attend church?  My relationship with God, the Father and Jesus Christ are not about them.  I felt the promptings of…

Loss of Faith sometimes

Faith is a tricky thing.  First off, not everyone believes it is the same thing. The computer dictionary shares this on faith: complete trust or confidence in someone or something; strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof. From the article: “Complex trauma survivors often endure…

Gratitude is…

An integral part of healing.  Gratitude helps me see the good things in a day.  Gratitude helps me see the good in me.  I started counting blessings.  Lots of them.  I did the blessing a day for a month and barely scratched the surface.  Then someone pointed out that counting blessings was putting a limit…

Every Part of my Life

I was once asked by a counselor what aspects of my life were impacted by PTSD.  Simple answer, “All of it.” There is not one part of my life left untouched by PTSD, or some people are calling multiple event trauma Complex PTSD.  I struggled with understanding how deeply I am affected.  I was raised…

Contradictions in Religion

One of the most insidious and long reaching abuses is often completely ignored or denied.  That is religious abuse. My definition is taking the concept of Heavenly Father, God, and twist it to mean something so horrible that either a person fears God to the point of being unwilling to study the scriptures or pray,…

Practice What I Preach

For weeks, I’ve written about the importance of self-care.  Now it is time for me to practice what I preach.  Deep sadness came to our family when our little granddaughter lived less than an hour.  We knew ahead of time.  I tried to prepare.  I underestimated the impact of one tiny little girl.  We said…