Planning Helps prepare

Like clock work my anxiety rises and falls with certain seasons.  I finally figured out that the anxiety starts mid October…..my mother’s birthday….until end of school when she would finally relax.  My life still seems to revolve around my mother that explained to me she hated me in our last conversation. So how do I…

Swim Buddy

Tonight I was done being an adult.  I pushed myself through several tough things and I was done.  Enter my sister.  My Dad, who she cares for, experienced trouble with his land line phone.  Batteries were needed, I had some.  When she came over, I whined that I was done with being an adult but…

Team Never Quit

Yup, Navy Seals Team Never Quit came out of the Froglogic page and yes I follow them on Facebook.  From them I learned about the importance of building a team.  One of the difficult things about child abuse is the abuser will isolate the child and imply that they are alone.  That no one will…

24 hours later

Interesting how sitting with your emotions for 24 hours can help them each have a turn center stage.  It sucked getting news about my mother’s death on facebook….the reality is my phone isn’t working well.  I put it on the charger and left to go shopping.  I was literally out of contact from any family. …

Inspiration

In the darkest room a single candle sheds the greatest light.  The consequences of sexual abuse darkens a life.  Feelings of unworthiness, disgust, self-distrust, sorrow, and so many other negative feelings crowd out light….like a heavy thick smokey fog choking out life.  Post is titled inspiration.  Darken rooms, darken lives hardly seem inspiring.  I didn’t…

Beginnings

Every so often I believe it is a good idea to go back and review beginnings, definitions, and useful links.  Sometimes a resource is lost or forgotten.  Or newly diagnosed and wanting to know basics.  Lived with PTSD or CPTSD for awhile and seeing how far you have come is refreshing reminder that progress does…