10 rounds with PTSD

Spent the last 10 days wrestling with what shot my PTSD into over drive.  Sleepless nights, anxiety, isolation, fear, raging anger, too sick to exercise, stuffing emotions with food.  Finally figured it out, I am freaking mad over having to wear a mask.  I stay away from people.  I never applied for a job that…

Personality Quizzes

Chatting online one of the concerns brought up are the personality quizzes.  I took several. One I took was mandatory because of the type of medical test I was having.  (Checking for epilepsy; no, I don’t have it.) I also help our students take different quizzes to find out what they like for possible career…

Sent myself to my room

Before I started counseling, I recognized that at times I would get raging angry.  I knew my anger was out of proportion of the incident.  I would send myself to my room.  I placed a blood shot eye TV vegetable with fat lip in front of my door.  Fair warning I was not reasonable, not…

Skills to learn

Before I started counseling I learned that to change your actions you need to change your thoughts.  I intellectually got it but something seemed missing.  I didn’t realize the thing missing was my own connection to my emotions.  Counseling shed light into the dark parts of my mind and helped me start to connect my…

What if…

What if you don’t know what is wrong with you.  I first noticed that there was something different about me when I was a teenager.  I listened to my friends talk about crushes, school, and family I felt totally out of the loop.  I was fascinated by their perspective but my concerns and worries didn’t…

Adults not much different than kids

A friend posted 8 things kids do that are actually anxiety in disguise.  I read the list and decided I do most of them at different times.  I followed the link on the meme to find the original posting. 8 Ways A Child’s Anxiety Shows Up as Something Else I like that they have linked…

Love of Dogs

We had several dogs in our home.  One dog was very unusual.  A beautiful German Shepherd flunked out of the seeing eye program.  The dog found a forever home with us.  Before I knew I had PTSD, looking back I realized our dog behaved like a PTSD trained dog without the training.  He would nudge…

Feel your feelings

One of the biggest obstacles I had to over come was my own rejection of my emotions.  My hero in high school was Mr. Spock because he had no feelings.  I felt totally betrayed when one episode showed him raging with anger.  I was told over and over again stupid people got bored.  I was…

Follow your Dreams

I love this video.  You have greatness within you.  Now is a time to prepare for the opportunities that may never come.  It is better to be prepared for an opportunity and not have one than to have an opportunity and not be prepared.   Les Brown