Looked it up

I am a member of a CPTSD group on Facebook.  Someone posed the question what is the difference between a panic attack and an anxiety attack.  My gut feeling is a panic attack is like a spike in fear that is difficult or impossible to control….anxiety attack is the struggle I go with many days…

I can be

flexible without getting bent out of shape. At school our principal challenged us to do something new this year.  Gear it up.  I decided with the many changes and different request I decided that I would not let all the changes bend me out of shape.  One of the challenges for a person living with…

Run Run as fast as you can

I quit sewing costumes for plays years ago because they get so crazy with fittings, alterations, sewing, and planning… sounds like reverse order but that is how crazy plays can get.  I volunteered to help with a Christmas musical at church thinking it would have at the most a dozen parts.  Oops.  A cast of…

Breathe deep the Gathering gloom

Moody Blues Lyrics “Late Lament” Breathe deep the gathering gloom, Watch lights fade from every room. Bedsitter people look back and lament, Another day’s useless energy spent. Impassioned lovers wrestle as one, Lonely man cries for love and has none. New mother picks up and suckles her son, Senior citizens wish they were young. Cold…

Nightmares and lack of sleep

I have nightmares.  I always had nightmares.  When I was little I would complain about my nightmares and I was told they would go away when I grew up.  They didn’t go away, therefore, I never grew up. When I started counseling, I averaged 3 hours of sleep per night.  That meant at least half…