Nobody guessed

How really messed up I was.  I excelled at the hiding game.  Our children were the first ones to really notice a recurring theme that their mother was not the same in all situations.  One of them accused me of lying.  I was appalled. When I entered counseling and discovered the dance between personalities that…

CPTSD

I was diagnosed with PTSD with dissociation at an extreme level over 12 years ago.  During that time PTSD was gaining recognition as being more than a soldier’s terror.  Sadly, this caused conflict and confusion.  Some soldiers thought that those not serving in the war didn’t have the ‘right’ to talk about their pain and…

Impact

*********Trigger Warning***********   I admire Lilly Hope Lucario.  Her blog is specifically for those that are survivors of sexual abuse.  I appreciate her sharing her ideas about surviving child sexual abuse.  I read one of her articles recently – Please be prepared for a tough read.  If you are not in a place ready to openly…

An advantage

I grew up with no social media.  I couldn’t text, surf or blog because none of that existed.  Saved me from posting a lot of dumb stuff. 25. “Several things, but the main one was lashing out on social media for years. Controversial and angry statuses, just due to the anger inside of me. I…

Not Good Enough

The last quote has two parts.  Blaming myself is part 1, part 2 is the constant feeling I am not good enough.  I’m not good enough parent, I’m not good enough photographer, I’m not good enough computer technician.  The list goes on and on and on.  I see myself as not enough. 23. “Blaming myself…