Skills to learn

Before I started counseling I learned that to change your actions you need to change your thoughts.  I intellectually got it but something seemed missing.  I didn’t realize the thing missing was my own connection to my emotions.  Counseling shed light into the dark parts of my mind and helped me start to connect my…

What if…

What if you don’t know what is wrong with you.  I first noticed that there was something different about me when I was a teenager.  I listened to my friends talk about crushes, school, and family I felt totally out of the loop.  I was fascinated by their perspective but my concerns and worries didn’t…

Skills to learn

Early in my counseling my therapist bluntly told me I was an emotional moron.  Wow thanks.  But he followed this with the information that I can change this by learning the skills that I didn’t learning as a child.  I totally did not comprehend how much I missed out on growing up.  I didn’t grow…

Zero

I read criticism on one of the Facebook CPTSD pages that a recommended video personality for healing from CPTSD was  not a trained psychologist or psychiatrist.  Guess what most of them aren’t.  My son and son-in-law both have psychology degrees, do you know how many hours of class was spent on trauma training?  That’s right,…

Can’t Make Him Happy

I belong to 2 CPTSD/PTSD groups on Facebook.  I don’t remember which one posted the question but a woman asked how she could help her little girl be happy again because they were going on a mother/daughter trip and the daddy said he would be sad while they were gone.  The little tender hearted girl…

One Voice

Trigger warning……video done by a suicide attempt survivor.     This is a tough video to view but I believe it is important to share….The discussion is the survivor of a suicide attempt.  If you are not in a place you can view this skip it.  If you know someone that is at risk, encourage them…

Lumping things together

One of the problems with PTSD/CPTSD and long term illnesses of all kinds you start to blame everything on one problem.  A couple of years ago I went to the doctor and he asked me a set of questions.  I answered yes to everyone of them and I blamed it all on PTSD/CPTSD.  Was I…

What comfort zone?

Many times I heard people tell me I needed to get out of my comfort zone.  I was puzzled and confused, what comfort zone?  I woke up stressed, I lived stress, and I went to sleep stressed to be greeted by nightmares, I didn’t believe there was such thing as a comfort zone.  Then I…

Super Power

My super power was dissociation and my counselor took my super power away.  Well, it felt like that.  Dissociation is the ability to disconnect, disengage and not be there for an experience. Lilly Hope Lucario https://themighty.com/2017/08/life-impacting-symptoms-of-complex-post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/  Lilly agrees with me that dissociation is a coping tool.  Works amazingly during times of extreme trauma.  Using dissociation…

In Search of Knights

Needs shiny armor and white horse. Feeling helpless as a child I wanted someone to rescue me.  That same theme is echoed in many childhood stories of someone swooping in and saving the day – EVERYDAY.  The Lone Ranger, Mighty Mouse, The Prince in Cinderella and Snow White, Lassie, all continue this theme of someone…