Capital letters

I know all caps is shouting on line but this next behavior would be all capitals. “I have trouble accepting any kind of love because growing up, it was always given with strings attached or used a tool for manipulation. I don’t trust that others have the capacity to love me unconditionally, so I hide…

Hermits and trust

I threatened my counselor that I would become a hermit.  It was easier in my mind than dealing with all the scary people around me all the time.  Wanting to be a hermit was tied to my not trusting people.  What to do? What to do? 6. “I’m basically a hermit. My home is my…

One Done One to go

These last 6 weeks have this constant energy drain of unknowns with my body.  I had emergency surgery with biopsies the first part of December.  I had to wait until today to hear the results.  This morning I accepted in my mind the possibility I have cancer, again.  I felt atremendous relief when the biopsies…

I believe you

My world stopped then started unwinding when my counselor told me these words.  I was told I was lying from the time I was very small until I thought it was true.  However, my counselor changed all that.  He believed me.  He listened to me.  He reminded me I was worth rescuing.  I’m thankful I…

Counseling

Counseling, fortunately, is becoming more acceptable.  Unfortunately, media portrays every PTSD survivor as a threat or a liar.  Great…(Read this word dripping in sarcasm, anyone willing to create a sarcasm font?)  I don’t need the media making my life any harder than it already is.  Determination is needed to start counseling.  Courage required to keep…