Authenticity

PTSD is brutal.  Severe dissociation is an elaborate hiding game from yourself.  The most difficult challenge is to choose authenticity in a world that wants you to “Don’t worry, be happy.”  Feeling what you feel when others tell you to ‘fake it until you make it’ is a difficult challenge.  Sometimes I prefer to be home…

Black Bag

I didn’t start counseling knowing there was anything unusual about my past.  My husband and I were going for marriage counseling.  Several homework assignments had confusing results before my counselor finally asked me about my past. I told him it was great, we went to the park and the zoo. He then asked me, “Tell…

Bread and Butterflies

One of the more annoying statements I read about PTSD are the ones telling me that I can be like I was before bad stuff happened. I would need to go back to 4 years old. Silly for me. More important than that why? No one attempts to put a loaf of bread in the…

Independence Day

In the United States we celebrate Independence Day on July 4th. This day is in commemoration of the signing of the Declaration of Independence.  Courageous men worked together to create a separate nation from England.  Most of the men that signed that document gave their lives, fortunes or what every it took to change the…