I maintain two different blogs. One is my personal journey out of the darkness of abuse survival. The second is this one about PTSD. Every so often I write a post that fits both places. Today is one of those posts. http://weareone-ruth.blogspot.com/2017/05/crap-happens.html Today I talked to the fashion students. I explained why I didn’t go…
I believe people learn differently. I found a visual way that demonstrates cognitive dissonance. Yes, I used my mouse to follow the rings.
I wrestled with cognitive dissonance but I didn’t know what it was or why it was sooooo uncomfortable. In counseling, I encountered extreme cognitive dissonance when my counselor tried to convince me I was a good person. Most people believe they are a good person. From the time I was small I was told repeatedly…
“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear” Buddhist Proverb quotes I remembered this quote and thought of all the times I needed a teacher….I looked for them. The hardest part was getting myself to the point of being ready to listen. I believe the teachers are there all the time but I don’t…
Awareness of childhood sexual abuse “We only believe those thoughts which have been conceived not in the brain but in the whole body” – W.B. Yeats * The process triggered by working with the brain and the body in conjunction deepen cognitive development significantly in the areas of evaluating, analyzing, applying and remembering *…
So does thriving. I am fascinated when two articles come together about the same time totally unconnected as to how I got them. Facebook for one and an email for the other. I am recognizing in myself a need for more change. I equate my experience in counseling as doing something similar to changing my…
End of the school year is always hectic and busy. Big events occur with a few extras thrown in. Fashion show is this week, culmination of months of work. Sick teacher had me subbing today…always wearing for me. Relief of a major burden leaves energy and room in my life for things I love. I…
I am learning what the students at school are learning about computer programming. I believe if I learned programming this way in the first place, I wouldn’t have the anxiety I do now. I stopped taking computer classes when I felt sick at the thought of taking another one. Code.org is free. The 2 minute…
Over 4 years since I started taking Karate. Of all the things I’ve done to regain my life from PTSD, this one thing has done the most to help me trust myself. Each belt the moves and challenges are more intense then the level before. I struggle with mat work. Falling forward into a forward…
This is a forever lament for those in the healing process. Why didn’t I get counseling years ago? Why didn’t I get away from that abuser years ago? Why? Why? Why? I found a quote that I believe encapsulates why. “At first people refuse to believe that a strange new thing can be done, then…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 