Spent the last 10 days wrestling with what shot my PTSD into over drive. Sleepless nights, anxiety, isolation, fear, raging anger, too sick to exercise, stuffing emotions with food. Finally figured it out, I am freaking mad over having to wear a mask. I stay away from people. I never applied for a job that…
I felt like a complete dweeb when I started college. My parents made all my major decisions for me including what to study in college, where I went to college, and basically what I wore to college. Yup, I was controlled that completely. Teenagers don’t magically turn into decision making adults without making their own…
The list of things I do as an adult that are similar to many other people that are survivors is daunting. https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ When I started counseling, I did 25 out of 25. I’ve improved those numbers. I going to tackle some of these with information as to how I made my life better. “[I] can’t…
One of the many cognitive dissonance moments was learning about the amygdala. That pesky part of the brain that sees a T-Rex instead of a barking dog. The amygdala kicks in when danger is perceived….unfortunately, long term abuse leaves me seeing danger everywhere. Examples a black cat is a pouncing panther, a test precedes a…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 