Continuum

One of the struggles of CPTSD and PTSD is Black and White thinking.  Bad is BAD and Good is good and nothing in between.  There is no such thing as sort of right.  Perfectionism or else and you don’t want to know what ‘or else’ is going to be.  My counselor spent many sessions trying…

Introverts

One of the fascinating things I learned from one of the classes at school is that some of my responses to the world is not about PTSD/CPTSD at all.  I am an introvert.  I crave home alone time.  I need time by myself to recharge my batteries.  Sometimes my no peopling days is more about…

Boiling Water

Some themes, poems, stories and experiences stick with me, mulling them over and over.  I take them out and reread them and consider their import….why do I keep thinking about some of these?  One such story is The Potato, the egg and Hot chocolate (I like it better than coffee in the original story.) Story…

Changed my lens

I was asked a question I am struggling with how to write the answer, “What would you like therapists to know?” The first counselor I worked with was so extraordinary I had a hard time saying anything.  He understood me in ways that I didn’t understand about myself.  He led me to answers, allowing me…

I’m sorry

  Thank you for being patient with me while I am working on the costumes.  I enjoyed watching Todd’s video on how often I do say I’m sorry and in the back of my mind I am feeling that I am apologizing for existing.  I am working on this.  One of my children pointed out…

Self-care, Are you?

What?  I am supposed to self-care?  Don’t I have enough to do caring for everyone else? https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/   Judy, my sister, found this link and shared it on her project/blog. Last round of 25 things my sister wrote after I did.  This time I think I will reverse it and post the link to her…