What if?

For the most part, I don’t like to look at what ifs?  Leaves me playing a game of creating a life that was never there.  How ever, what if I didn’t have a counselor?  Sadly, this is a growing issue. Two things are hitting hard.  Many insurances don’t cover mental health appointments or the number…

Nobody guessed

How really messed up I was.  I excelled at the hiding game.  Our children were the first ones to really notice a recurring theme that their mother was not the same in all situations.  One of them accused me of lying.  I was appalled. When I entered counseling and discovered the dance between personalities that…

Emotions or not

Emotions are often wished a way… I wish I wasn’t sad. I wish I wasn’t angry. I wish I could control my emotions. Sadly, some wishes are fulfilled until no emotions are felt any more.  They have a psychology word for it dissociation. It is extremely unhealthy.  It is grey and nothing. I fenced myself…