Sent myself to my room

Before I started counseling, I recognized that at times I would get raging angry.  I knew my anger was out of proportion of the incident.  I would send myself to my room.  I placed a blood shot eye TV vegetable with fat lip in front of my door.  Fair warning I was not reasonable, not…

What if…

What if you don’t know what is wrong with you.  I first noticed that there was something different about me when I was a teenager.  I listened to my friends talk about crushes, school, and family I felt totally out of the loop.  I was fascinated by their perspective but my concerns and worries didn’t…

Super Power

My super power was dissociation and my counselor took my super power away.  Well, it felt like that.  Dissociation is the ability to disconnect, disengage and not be there for an experience. Lilly Hope Lucario https://themighty.com/2017/08/life-impacting-symptoms-of-complex-post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/  Lilly agrees with me that dissociation is a coping tool.  Works amazingly during times of extreme trauma.  Using dissociation…

not enough

I am continuing on the list of things that are recommended for therapist to do.  I believe these are important to recognize for the client because as a person seeing a therapist I can make the work harder or easier.  If I understand what my own options are I can work towards my strengths.  Sadly,…

Therapist response

I learned from reading about it and from my own experience that the response of the therapist is key to moving forward in therapy.  I was blessed with my first counselor that delivered just the right mix of validation, encouragement and teaching new skills.  Later experiences I had one not believe me, another tell me…

Zentangles

I have the attention span of a gnat when it comes to meditation.  The moment I sit down to meditate or pray I can see the checkered flag waving, the start of the racing thoughts flooding my mind.  Meditation fail.  I am working on an Art therapy online class.  My teacher posted a blog post…

Layers of nightmares

My sister shared this article with me on Facebook, thanks Judy.  http://www.militarytimes.com/story/military/advice/kevlar-for-the-mind/2016/07/11/hopeful-sign-combat-veterans-nightmares-insomnia/86937384/ Shares a method called ERRT – Exposure, Relaxation, and Rescription Therapy This method is not new.  What is new they are starting to test it.  The frustrating part is no one can make money off of this because it is not a new…