deNile just ain’t a river

Not me! Nothing all that bad happened to me. I don’t remember anything bad happening. Problems happen to everyone. Every kid has bad things happen.  Its just part of growing up. Denial……If you don’t believe it happened then it didn’t happen, right? Wrong…..your body remembers.  Your subconscious remembers.  Your nightmare remembers.  Denying anything is wrong…

Authenticity

PTSD is brutal.  Severe dissociation is an elaborate hiding game from yourself.  The most difficult challenge is to choose authenticity in a world that wants you to “Don’t worry, be happy.”  Feeling what you feel when others tell you to ‘fake it until you make it’ is a difficult challenge.  Sometimes I prefer to be home…