Warts and all

I decided when I started this blog to tell it like it is…all of it, warts and all.  Some of the encouraging pages I studied glossed over the tough days.  They jump forward to the future saying tomorrow will be better without addressing the distress today.  I don’t do time warps. On some days, PTSD…

Wishing I was in counseling

Tonight is one of those nights that I wish I was still in counseling with my first counselor.  He let me email him when I felt tremendous internal pressure and I needed to let off steam without harming anyone, myself included.  He wouldn’t always answer.  Many times it would be a short acknowledgement that we…

Something to work on

Every once in awhile I run across an article that hits a tender and mending spot.  For many years my emotions were unavailable to me and in extension to my children.  I didn’t do this on purpose.  It has to do with how I was raised.  I am working at changing it.  I change slowly.…

All in my head

I heard the “All in my head” from the time I was 15 years old.  I went to medical doctors first trying to understand what happens to me body.  When I can go from lots of energy to 0 in less than 10 minutes.  (One of the reasons people with PTSD are sometimes diagnosed with…

Challenge my views

Counseling was a weekly challenge to my life views.  There wasn’t a single part of my life that wasn’t pushed to the max during counseling.  I continue the process.  Before jumping to the idea that I am suggesting you doubt yourself, I learned to challenge long held beliefs. If you always do what you always…

Tips to help anxiety

Pushing myself to the limits of my endurance, finances, and emotional ends sometimes sets me up to more likely have an anxiety attack. PTSD Breaks the Silence posted some awesome suggestions.  Click on the name below to go to their web page if you have Facebok PTSD Break The Silence PTSD and Panic Attacks –…

Break the Silence

My Facebook buddies posted this one…it is an overview that some may find helpful.  If you enjoy a facebook account, click on PTSD Break the silence and like their page.   PTSD Break The Silence Frequently Asked Questions about PTSD By HAROLD COHEN, PH.D. Is the cause of PTSD simply a traumatic event? Although PTSD…

Why fight it?

*********Trigger alert********** The contents of this post may be triggering or disturbing for some readers.  Proceed with caution.   Today at school I challenged students to face their why.  They are writing about their career choices and I am asking them to tell why.  Why do you want to do this career?  What is your…

Rule #1

Counseling taught me many things.  However, one basic rule needed to be followed. Rule #1 Stop lying, especially to yourself.  That’s it.  Stop it.  My teenagers brought me up short and started my truth campaign before counseling.  They asked me why I lied all the time.  I of course denied the allegation.  I asked them…

Blaming Christmas

It is easy to blame Christmas for the stress, frustration, melt downs, depression and other negativity around the season.  However, if you look at it from the perspective that December 25 is a day like any other day it starts to become clear that it is not the day itself; our own expectations of the…