Every year I brace myself for May…well actually Mother’s Day.  Holidays, special events, specific dates all come loaded with their own set of triggers.  To help ease my distress, I think about how far I have come.  I started counseling 12 years ago.  I worked 7 years with one counselor, 3 with another and one year with the last counselor.  Now I’m working on my own.  My job changed dramatically this year.  I am exhausted and super jazzed at the same time.  I feel wiped out.  I am missing church, karate, sleep, friends, like a prisoner I am marking off the days until this ordeal ends.  I am so done.  I am hoping next year calms down a bit.  They don’t pay me enough to feel this bad.