Tired and out of sorts

I felt whiny and complaining today because I feel lousy.  I am trying to remind myself that my body hates, I mean hates to travel.  I always have a back lash.  I am still able to work every day, I just buckle when I get home.  I have a ton of stuff to do but…

Tired of being tired

I believe one of the predominant feelings of people with PTSD is “Tired of being Tired.” The interesting thing about tiredness is it comes from multiple sources.  Hyper-vigilance sustained over long periods of time puts a lot of wear and tear on the body.  Super alert constantly leaves little time for the body to rejuvenate. …

Hit the ball

And Drag George…… This is a punch line from a Golfing joke.  4 guys were golfing buddies and met rain or shine on the links every Saturday.  One particular Saturday the wife noticed they came home particularly late.  She asked her husband what happened.  “Oh it was terrible,” he complained, “George had a heart attack…

Need more

sphincter muscles.  Yup.  All week I worked on a list of vocabulary words for school.  One was sphincter muscle.  The explanation was long and almost as confusing.  I had a 3rd column that gave a short more direct answer.  This morning I stared at the word then burst out laughing.  I knew I couldn’t use…

All things come to an end

I’m so glad they do.  I never counted so carefully the days until the end of school.  I’m exhausted.  I did something WAY outside of my comfort zone.  I was a part time substitute teacher for Fashion class.  The students were awesome and I am wiped out.  I chose to accept the principal’s request that…

Bracing myself for May

Every year I brace myself for May…well actually Mother’s Day.  Holidays, special events, specific dates all come loaded with their own set of triggers.  To help ease my distress, I think about how far I have come.  I started counseling 12 years ago.  I worked 7 years with one counselor, 3 with another and one…