Trigger or Discernment?

I read several PTSD blogs to keep up on what other people are discovering and trying with PTSD.  I appreciated the post over at Healing from Complex PTSD discussing the difference between a trigger and discerning current bad behavior. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2016/06/20/when-triggers-are-actually-intuition-discernment-lilly-hope-lucario/ My thoughts on the issue is that it isn’t a trigger if the bad behavior…

On Rough days

One of the frustrations of PTSD is after a wonderful experience, a crash often follows close on or a trigger seems 10 times more annoying when you felt on top of the world to slam down again.  On these rough days I like to remember the quote I saw from several sources.  (Not sure who…

Celebrate success

This week I was at an indoor park watching my grandchildren play while their Moms had a few minutes of Mom time.  I was doing exactly what I always dreamed to be doing.  My hyper-vigilance was a plus because I kept track of all of them in a sea of wiggling happy excitement of children’s…

Looking for help

One of the challenges of looking for help is finding someone that understands PTSD.  The second challenge is the mistaken belief that they can fix you.  I started counseling with the vague idea that going the therapist would magically fix my problems.  Doesn’t work that way.  A good counselor in my opinion shares with you…

PTSD Awareness

June is declared by someone to be PTSD awareness month.  For those living with it, we are aware 24/7, if you unfamiliar with this number combination it means, 24 hours a day and 7 days a week.  No time off for good behavior.  I sometimes get fairly smug thinking it is gone from my life…

Depth of the Sea

One of the abuses that I faced was religious abuse.  Twisting scriptures to their own design abusers use God as their motivation to terrorize and brutalize their victims.  I didn’t read the Bible for a long time because of how it was used to twist meanings. I am sharing from my other blog this response…

20 Signs of Unresolved trauma

I started counseling with my husband in marriage counseling.  After several ‘failed’ homework assignments, the counselor asked me about my childhood.  I chirped, “It was great, we went to the park, we went to the zoo.  It was a great childhood.”  He shook his head and persisted, “Tell me an average day.”  He knew before…