Endings and beginnings

One month ends and another begins…it is the last month of the year so it is the beginning of the end.  One of the toughest things about PTSD is fearing change.  PTSD is doable with routines.  Routines for everything.  The slightest shuffle or slightest bump in my schedule can send me for a tail spin. …

What really matters?

I believe in many ways this is the pivotal question that gets distorted in an abuse situation.  What really matters was all about appeasing my abuser to survive one more day.  What really matters was second guessing and jumping through hoops hoping I made it through them fast enough before the boom fell.  Violence and…

Who’s responsibility is it?

One thing I learned from reading other people’s blogs is the problem of deciding, “Who’s responsibility is it?”  Many people that feel overwhelmed and exhausted often take on the responsibilities of others.  From an early age, I was taught to care for my mother instead of expecting my mother to care for me.  I took…