Planning Helps prepare

Like clock work my anxiety rises and falls with certain seasons.  I finally figured out that the anxiety starts mid October…..my mother’s birthday….until end of school when she would finally relax.  My life still seems to revolve around my mother that explained to me she hated me in our last conversation. So how do I…

Baby-steps

First of the year we are bombarded with meme’s to set goals, make resolutions, embrace the change and get moving.  For many years I hung my head in shame and gave up on January 2, because I was going to break those resolutions anyway, may as well get it over with as quickly as possible. …

Document, document, document

Many times I am told that I am over sensitive, imagining things, and at fault for feeling like bad things are happening.  People, sometimes bad things are happening.  Too often, the person telling you it is not bad is the one that is hurting you.  I read several times on a group for CPTSD that…

Sharing pages

When I started my blog for PTSD it was one of the few non-military pages.  I started it because I wanted to connect with others that understood life at the home front is sometimes more dangerous than the war front.  Now more blogs are coming on board to share their experiences and understanding of PTSD…

What if?

For the most part, I don’t like to look at what ifs?  Leaves me playing a game of creating a life that was never there.  How ever, what if I didn’t have a counselor?  Sadly, this is a growing issue. Two things are hitting hard.  Many insurances don’t cover mental health appointments or the number…

first mess up

of the season.  With PTSD one of the things I am guaranteed is I mess up.  The higher the stress the more spectacular the screw ups.  I could beat myself up but what good would it do.  Today I went into full retreat at work.  A substitute teacher was talking about highly controversial subjects and…

Relationships

I believe that every person with PTSD or not had difficulties with relationships because we are human.  We don’t see things the same way.  We don’t respond to stress in the same way. We all have different expectations.  However, PTSD and trauma can add layers of difficulty that can be difficult to cut through.  Me…