Hazards of telling my story

Telling my story was essential to turning my life around and healing the hurt in my soul.  As I started to remember and piece together my past my counselor gave me several cautions.  I will share with you what I learned. 1.  The mind does not remember events in a nice, neat orderly chain of…

Where’s your focus?

The secret of change is to focus all your energy, not on fighting the old, but on Building the new ~ Socrates Sounds good, logical, the right thing to do.  However, I learned on my journey that I first needed to survey the damage in my life.  I needed to acknowledge my life was a…

Accepting UGLY

I spent the afternoon dreading then talking to my counselor.  The interesting thing about acceptance is it is easy to accept the good parts of my life.  It is easy to accept the mundane parts of my life.  But the crusty-nasty-wish-that-never-happned parts are a bit more of a challenge.  My counselor challenged me to sit…

Healing and Change

I’ve worked on improving myself for years.  I tried and failed many ways of learning to live.  I recognized very early in my teens that there was something odd about me but I was always the way I was, I didn’t know where to start.  In counseling, I started a focused concentrated healing.  I learned…

Doesn’t help

I am a big believer in education key to understanding mental illness.  Unfortunately, Hollywood and other artists can add to the confusion more than they help.  Tonight I turned off the TV in disgust because a favorite show was portraying the horrible awful bad murderous villian as a schizophrenic triggered by PTSD.  Their script writer…

Don’t should on me

Counseling gave me a place to throw up all my thoughts and my counselor helped me pick through what needed to change to improve my life.  I don’t remember what I was discussing but I remember vividly I said something I should do.  I was stunned when he asked me, “Who shoulded on you?”  A…