Survivor’s Guilt

I am doing a bit of light Summer reading.…(please read that with intense sarcasm.)  If talk of mass shootings is triggering for you…..please skip today’s post. They Call Me “Mr. De”  is the book written by Frank DeAngelis, former principal of Columbine High School.  This high school was one of the first mass shootings after…

A week later

I took off school today for probably one of the strangest reasons so I didn’t explain too much.  I thought I was doing fairly well with the news of my mother dying.  Then yesterday, I received a sympathy card.  To say I didn’t handle it well would be a gross understatement.  I knew the sender…

24 hours later

Interesting how sitting with your emotions for 24 hours can help them each have a turn center stage.  It sucked getting news about my mother’s death on facebook….the reality is my phone isn’t working well.  I put it on the charger and left to go shopping.  I was literally out of contact from any family. …

Losing fear

I pondered on one of the oddities of living a life filled with fear.  My counselor called it living a fear based life.  What stunned him was my reaction when we were discussing death.  As our discussion continued he was puzzled by some of my responses.  He finally stated, “You are not afraid of dying.” …