Permission to feel

Interesting how Lilly needs to write again about feeling all feelings including peaceful ones.  For me I needed permission to feel angry, sad, and all the ‘negative’ emotions.  Without the ‘negative’ emotions, I did not recognize feeling peace when it did come.  It got smothered along with all the other emotions.  My first counselor recognized…

Beyond Pain

One of the difficult things with PTSD is people ask, “How bad was it?” Like there has to be some scale to measure pain before it is “OK” to have PTSD.  What is bad or the worst thing to one person may be a piece of cake to someone else.  Too often a person with…

To the Pain

A challenge in “Princess Bride” rather than a fight to the death it would be a fight to the pain.  The description stayed vivid in my mind.  The implication is death is preferred to pain and pain must be avoided at all cost.  Through my life experience I learned that isn’t always true.  When I…

Chronic pain

Which came first, the chicken or the egg?  Chronic pain is a rarely mentioned side effect or symptom or cause of PTSD.  Many days of my life, I wake up, I move, I’m in pain, I’m not dead, therefore, I have to get up.  Bummer.  I could never figure out what was causing some of…

It’s your experience

Too often I was told how I should feel, how long I should hurt, and ridiculed if I cried.  I learned to stuff how I felt, no longer acknowledged my pain, and didn’t cry.  I was emotionally self destructing.  I spent 3 years almost completely bed ridden.  I could be up about 20 minutes a…

Don’t do this

Every once in a while I come across a very challenging article.  I am going to share my perspective on each of these. Stupid Phrases for People in Crisis  http://communicatingacrossboundariesblog.com/2015/09/28/stupid-phrases-for-people-in-crisis/ I use some of these phrases…I don’t use others.  I’m going to explore them from my perspective.  Please, remember this is my understanding from my experience. …