A loaded question.  Judy explored her perspective of why over on her blog http://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2014/09/04/why/ I’ve thought all day about her post.  Did you know that to me one of the most important questions we can ever ask is Why?  Why did I do that?  Why am I reacting this way? Why am I waking at night?  Why am I afraid to sleep?  Why do I want to find a counselor?  Why is my anxiety shooting through the roof?  Why do I keep going?

I joined in the facebook challenge of writing 3 things I am thankful for.  After my 3 things I wrote cease the day.  It was 6:30 in the morning and I was ready to stop the day.  I wanted to crawl back into bed.  I want to pull the covers over my head.  Why?

Did you know that there is a web page that will mentor you for $129 to help you figure out your why?  Compared to the cost of counseling it is inexpensive.  The web page asserts that if you know your Why you know your passion in life.  I believe if you know your why you are one step closer to accepting where you are.  Rephrase that, ‘If I know my why, I am a step closer to knowing where I am at, right now.’

I feel it is fairly useless to rant at life and ask why me?  Why was I picked to be abused on my street?  Almost every kid on my street was abused. The abuse wasn’t about me.  Why they did what they did is totally immaterial to me.  Their why is about them not me.  My why, I need to question.  When I accept my why, then I am a step closer to accepting me.  What happened to me was unfair and unacceptable but it happened any way.  Why me is a useless question.  Why am I continuing to move forward?  Why am I seeking counseling?  Why am I waking up in the morning?  These are all questions that have a direct bearing on me.

Added to my bucket list https://www.startwithwhy.com/learnyourwhy