Permission to feel

Interesting how Lilly needs to write again about feeling all feelings including peaceful ones.  For me I needed permission to feel angry, sad, and all the ‘negative’ emotions.  Without the ‘negative’ emotions, I did not recognize feeling peace when it did come.  It got smothered along with all the other emotions.  My first counselor recognized…

Financial Responsibility

  21. Being financially responsible for myself so I don’t have to still be dependent on abusers and then hating myself for it. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ Judy writes: https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2017/12/13/self-care-21-of-25/ Couple of years ago my World crash when I realized I do not have the physical stamina to hold down a full time high responsibility job.  I can…

Healing Naturally

I watched my mother down hand fulls of medications and later supplements in the quest for being healthy.  But she wouldn’t go outside for fear of the sun.  I saw my grandmother come to live with us with a small suitcase of medications.  They put her in the hospital to detox her and found out…

Sleep is self care

And a nightmare for me, literally.  Some nights I stay awake not because I am thrilled with what I am doing but terrified of letting my brain connect with my subconscious.  Nasty things in there and I work hard at keeping them separated. 19. Sleeping.. I’ve slept about 6 hours in the last 48. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/…

No is….

A complete sentence.  My counselor worked with me over and over and over and over, no, I didn’t get it until he had me practice repeatedly.  I kept giving huge humongous explanations as to why I was saying no….or more likely I didn’t say no, I attempted the impossible and failed, a lot. Which brings…

Not my biggest problem

Continuing on to #17 on the 25 obvious and non obvious 17. Biggest problem I have is remembering that I need to give myself more attention and love. Rather than continuously giving it all to others. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ This is Judy’s perspective.  I really like it but it is not my perspective so you get different…