Lumping things together

One of the problems with PTSD/CPTSD and long term illnesses of all kinds you start to blame everything on one problem.  A couple of years ago I went to the doctor and he asked me a set of questions.  I answered yes to everyone of them and I blamed it all on PTSD/CPTSD.  Was I ever shocked to find out those list of symptoms were all caused by a tumor on my thyroid.  Thankfully it seems to be benign and slow growing.  I learned that my brittle hair, increased wight and added anxiety had a totally different source for the issues.  My counselor spent a lot of time teaching me to separate out different problems.  When I scrapped problems all together and looked at the whole rotten mess, I felt over whelmed.  I kept trying to cram through healing and get to some new place or consciousness.  Human healing will not be rushed.  Instead of lumping things together he encouraged me to break things down to the smaller elements.  Getting enough sleep affected other areas of my life.  Hay-fever started late but is here enforce.  I need to view those problems separate from the thyroid which is separate from my PTSD/CPTSD issues.  Today I am tackling finding the right medication for my allergy symptoms.  The one I used last year, a 24 hour medication only worked 12 hours.  I am trying a different one.  So far so good.  I am learning to not try to  lump all my challenges together.  One of the thing that is taught in every management program is how to break down a problem and focus on what needs to be done first.  Right now the first thing I need to do is find what works for my allergies.  I need to be kind to myself and not beat myself up for not working on other issues.

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