Cut off

It is unsettling to be suddenly cut off from my Internet.  My sister took pity on me and lets me come to her house to try to keep up a little.  So much is happening and I keep thinking well I can look that up or I can read that but no….it is on the…

Different results

Beats and rhythms designed to heal and relax.  Some people believe this is useless; another way to extract money from people looking for relief.  I have a different theory.  Over the years I spent many hours researching different healing avenues.  I learned that each one has its merits and followers.  Music therapy is now a…

Can’t Make them Happy

One of the chargers I had as a child was to make my mother happy.  Being an obedient child I did my best and failed over and over and over because it wasn’t possible.  Happiness is an inside job. Will Smith agrees with me and shared his views in this video. Enjoy: you tube put…

i do not like that sam i am

I like reading to children.  I like many of the children’s books.  I can recite pages and pages of some of the books I read often to our children.  However, there are some books that kids seem to love that have a very dark message.  Green Eggs and Ham is on my ugh list.  Kids…

Self-protection

I am responsible for protecting myself.  Too long I waited for my mother, my father, my husband, someone to protect me…..I waited……..and waited.  Then I started counseling.  Maybe the counselor would protect me?  Nope.  He informed me that he would teach me how to protect myself. NO That’s it.  One word, no explanation needed.  I…

Laughter connection

I struggled with understanding that I was depressed.  I love to laugh.  I see the absurdity of the World and myself and laugh often.  My medical doctor said I was depressed and didn’t know it.  His opinion baffled me.  During counseling that little mystery was cleared up.  My therapist asked me if I ever felt…

Self-compassion

Learning Self-compassion is a long term goal. I can actually say I made improvements.  I am grieving a huge loss, instead of beating myself up for not moving mountains and working as if nothing happened, I am giving myself time each day to feel sad.  I cry when I need to.  I am not expecting…

In Search of Happiness

One definition of thriving is feeling Happy.  Living through deep depression, PTSD or some people call it CPTSD, cancer, and suicidal ideology, happiness seemed elusive or fleeting.  Years ago a lady I knew wrote a song about Happiness is Like a butterfly….When pursued is frightened and shied.  I lived hearing things like when you get…

Practice What I Preach

For weeks, I’ve written about the importance of self-care.  Now it is time for me to practice what I preach.  Deep sadness came to our family when our little granddaughter lived less than an hour.  We knew ahead of time.  I tried to prepare.  I underestimated the impact of one tiny little girl.  We said…

Different definition

I don’t consider this a self care for me.  I like planning things.  I like spacing out my errands so they don’t get all jammed on the same day.  I am happy to be alive and doing so many different things. However, I do give myself permission to have a no peopling day. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2017/07/16/25-obvious-non-obvious-self-care-issues-complex-trauma-survivors-struggle-with-lilly-hope-lucario/ 25.…