Learning from a child

An important part of surviving PTSD is allowing myself to experience missed childhood adventures and feelings. Early in my life I was trained not to feel emotions.  When I started feeling my emotions I spent much of my time trying to name them and understand them.  I looked at each one from every angle.  I…

Battle of the mind

In some situations, there are limits I can’t change.  There are problems I can’t fix.  There are choices by other people, I can do nothing about.  If I sleep more, the nightmares will come, not perhaps, not maybe but come without fail.  If I work my self to exhaustion, my body will collapse, it does…

Laughter

A beautiful survival tool is laughter.  Turns tears into something quite funny or odd.  I often joke that I can laugh or I can cry, laughing is more fun.  When we we got Reader’s Digest in the mail, I read all the jokes first.  I bought joke books.  I grew up watching comics and funny…

Where is your center?

I first heard this question used so long ago I know longer know the source.  However, the question is constantly coming back over and over again. I believe at this time of setting goals I need to decide where is my center?  What is the most important thing to me?  Are my goals heading me…

Tantrums vs Meltdowns

Most people think this is an issue for children.  Well, PTSD arrest growth and some adults, namely me, act like children.  I found this information useful for me.  Corrected link to original owner http://www.alternativewiring.com/ Counseling ripped away the fragile lock I had on my emotions.  I started having meltdowns but I was accused of having…

Combinations of thoughts

I am blessed with awesome Facebook pages that encourage me and inspire me to be better.  They also assure me that I am of worth just as I am. These are a couple of pictures that came through my timeline that I saved to use here. Often when I am trying to select ways to…

SMART baby steps

PTSD is a monster to live with.  My attempts to remove it from my life is less than what I would like it to be.  I learned the hard way trying to eradicate it from my life in all one go is not going to happen right now.  I set myself up to fail setting…

Can’t let go

I had no memories from my childhood.  In a way I let it go but I still had PTSD response with no understanding as to why I reacted this way.  It was difficult in counseling when my counselor asked me about my past.  I chirped, “We went to the park, we went to the zoo.” …