Negotiating Troubled Waters

One of the things that often overwhelms a person with PTSD is negotiating troubled waters, difficult relationships, uncharted experiences, and other stuff that is just plain difficult.  Relationship challenges probably hit the top of the list for almost every person with PTSD.  Many resort to reclusing, aloneness, hibernating, withdrawing or some other form of getting…

Not good enough

Caution Rant post……     People say, “Stop apologizing all the time.”  But then they tell you what is wrong with you and expect an apology.  People say, “You are enough.”  Then they tell you how much you hurt other people and you are not enough.  People say, “Accept me how I am.”  But refuse…

Nobody guessed

How really messed up I was.  I excelled at the hiding game.  Our children were the first ones to really notice a recurring theme that their mother was not the same in all situations.  One of them accused me of lying.  I was appalled. When I entered counseling and discovered the dance between personalities that…

Symptoms and Learning

The past week I encountered a variety of web pages sharing different perspectives on symptoms of complex PTSD. The first one is from a known source The Mighty.  This page hosts sections of their page devoted to different challenges.  Their articles are often thought provoking and challenging.  To me, for the most part, fairly accurate. …

Connecting to feelings

I was asked how did I reconnect to my feelings…….This is my response. My counselor worked with me for years but there are a few basics that made a big difference. Rule #1 Stop lying, especially to yourself. Emotions are messy and temporary. Ignoring them, they will go away taking happiness, contentment and joy with…

Hoarding

I have one room that looks like it could be featured on hoarders.  I work to clean it up, I get overwhelmed, and with in a week or two I am in worse of a mess than before.  Thanks to DH I keep it mostly to one room.  I didn’t have any problem when I…

Don’t let nobody wrinkle your Smooth

Inspiration can come from many sources.  “Don’t let nobody wrinkle your smooth” is wisdom from the Stickman in this video.  By example he demonstrates how art blesses lives of those creating it. https://inspirationbygod.net/3843/the-wisdom-of-king-solomon-and-the-stick-man/ Recently I am facing challenges that are results from someone else facing their challenge.  I was getting really upset last night by…

Relief

Facing my fears sometimes reduces them to miniature.  Other times with the help of a knowledgeable person I am able to make realistic choices that fit into my life.  I am given another new challenge that is listed as wait and see.  I am learning to be very comfortable with wait and see. Patience is…

Hidden forms of abuse

My daughter posted a link to a list of hidden forms of abuse.  Those behaviors that fall in the category of deniable.  The abuser turns things around and blames the victim. https://tapoos.com/relationships/9-abusive-behaviors-not-physical/?utm_source=virmed&utm_medium=affiliate&utm_campaign=VMPub146 Gaslighting – This is an intentional war on the mind and emotions of another person.  It is coined from a movie from the…