Emotional Abuse

During counseling, my therapist defined several different types of abuse.  He wanted me to understand what it is and what it wasn’t.  One of the most difficult forms of abuse to define and recognize is emotional abuse.  It leaves no mark that I can point to, “See you hurt me there.”  I was raised with…

Feeling Stupid

One of the more unpleasant emotions is feeling stupid.  Ever thought of that as an emotion?  It has to do with how you feel and it often motivates a person to quit, give up, hide, or feel inferior.  PTSD arranges many opportunities to feel stupid.  One of the ‘glitches’ of PTSD is a gap in…

Tantrums vs Meltdowns

Most people think this is an issue for children.  Well, PTSD arrest growth and some adults, namely me, act like children.  I found this information useful for me.  Corrected link to original owner http://www.alternativewiring.com/ Counseling ripped away the fragile lock I had on my emotions.  I started having meltdowns but I was accused of having…

Combinations of thoughts

I am blessed with awesome Facebook pages that encourage me and inspire me to be better.  They also assure me that I am of worth just as I am. These are a couple of pictures that came through my timeline that I saved to use here. Often when I am trying to select ways to…

SMART baby steps

PTSD is a monster to live with.  My attempts to remove it from my life is less than what I would like it to be.  I learned the hard way trying to eradicate it from my life in all one go is not going to happen right now.  I set myself up to fail setting…

Can’t let go

I had no memories from my childhood.  In a way I let it go but I still had PTSD response with no understanding as to why I reacted this way.  It was difficult in counseling when my counselor asked me about my past.  I chirped, “We went to the park, we went to the zoo.” …

Self evaluation time

This is the time of the year I review my progress.  I made it through Christmas time.  I love the season but tend to plan more than I could ever accomplish.  I lost presents that I bought this summer and had to buy things for my granddaughters. They’ll get the other presents when I find…