One of the more unpleasant emotions is feeling stupid. Ever thought of that as an emotion? It has to do with how you feel and it often motivates a person to quit, give up, hide, or feel inferior. PTSD arranges many opportunities to feel stupid. One of the ‘glitches’ of PTSD is a gap in memory. I improved, instead of days, I now miss only hours or minutes. Unfortunately those missing minutes can be crucial. Yesterday, I attempted my first sparring in Karate. I carefully took out my hearing aides, placed them in a box, and put them in a safe place. The sparring was very stressful but not actually difficult. Just me over reacting by a lot. After we were done, I went to retrieve my hearing aides. I couldn’t find them and I couldn’t remember where I put them in the ‘safe spot.’ $3000 hearing aides were very important to find. Within 10 minutes I had the whole class looking for my hearing aides. One of the other ladies found them in a zipper pocket I forgot I had in my bag. I felt stupid. Fortunately, my class is a place of acceptance. It happened. Hearing aides were found. Its all good. Sadly, there are many situations where ridicule and teasing intensify my feeling stupid. I am learning that acceptance of a mental ‘glitch’ goes a long way towards lessening the feeling of stupidity when I realized I was the one that put the hearing aides in a safe place that I couldn’t find. This is just one of many occasions when my brain goes on vacation without me. Accepting the glitches helps lessens my anxiety that helps to lessen having more forgetful moments.