Decide not to stay

Hope For The Broken Hearted The first step towards getting somewhere, is simply to decide that you are not going to stay where you are… then just move forward, one step, one day at a time…when you’re overwhelmed, I know that’s easier said than done, but do just one thing today to help yourself…do one…

PTSD means set backs

Most people progress towards a goal with an expectation to keep moving forward.  PTSD means set backs.  Like driving an old jalopy you never know when a tire will blow, a part will fall off, or a water hose will spring a leak.  I wonder what’s wrong with me that I can not keep moving…

Stress response exists….

…with or without a name.  From the age of 5 to 45 I had no name for the physical, emotional, and spiritual response that I had to living.  My nightmares were dismissed as childish.  My memories disappeared completely by the time I was in high school.  Physical symptoms were disregarded as ‘you’re a teenager,’ ‘you’re…

Accepting myself

To me, the first step in my healing process was to finally accept where I was in life.  I tried denial and all it did was give me more time to bury myself deeper in muck and mire.  Years ago, I moved to Tri-Cities, Washington, 3 cities, 3 rivers and 3 freeways.  I kept a…

deNile just ain’t a river

Not me! Nothing all that bad happened to me. I don’t remember anything bad happening. Problems happen to everyone. Every kid has bad things happen.  Its just part of growing up. Denial……If you don’t believe it happened then it didn’t happen, right? Wrong…..your body remembers.  Your subconscious remembers.  Your nightmare remembers.  Denying anything is wrong…

Authenticity

PTSD is brutal.  Severe dissociation is an elaborate hiding game from yourself.  The most difficult challenge is to choose authenticity in a world that wants you to “Don’t worry, be happy.”  Feeling what you feel when others tell you to ‘fake it until you make it’ is a difficult challenge.  Sometimes I prefer to be home…

Independence Day

In the United States we celebrate Independence Day on July 4th. This day is in commemoration of the signing of the Declaration of Independence.  Courageous men worked together to create a separate nation from England.  Most of the men that signed that document gave their lives, fortunes or what every it took to change the…