Same words

Different meanings.  One of the hard things about writing a blog about PTSD I can use words like dissociation, nightmares, suffering, and many other words and what I mean may not have the same definition to some of my readers.  I went on some websites and felt marginalized and dismissed because I was not in…

Breathing is good

Feeling Blue – Breathe…..really. Many times when I get anxious or upset the first thing I do is hold my breath.  Taking time to breathe can make a difference.  Breathing is a basic go to slow down the beginnings of stress or the early stages of melt down.  Wait too long and tell me to…

It’s her fault

All over people are celebrating the blessings of mothers and motherhood.  Sadly, it is not a day of celebration for many.  Heart break when you can’t have children.  Heart break when a baby doesn’t live.  Heart break of a still born child or miscarriage.  Heart break of losing a mother to drugs, alcohol or death. …

Contented Happy People

Don’t change. Ever noticed that the people making the changes in the world are unhappy, angry, discontented, and the whole list of negative emotions are the ones that create the changes.  Advertising companies spend billions of dollars trying to persuade people that they cannot be happy until they do___________, buy __________ or become _____________.  Yes…

Emotional Mindfulness

The title to this article intrigued me: Emotional Mindfulness: What Anger, Vulnerability & Despair Teach Us Emotional Mindfulness: What Anger, Vulnerability & Despair Teach Us I enjoy coming across an article that agrees with me.  I spent a large portion of my life unable to access how I felt.  Through brutal childhood experience I learned to separate…

Live like you’ll die tomorrow

Is the worse advice.  They imply that you should live each day to the fullest because tomorrow you might die.  Perhaps.  Too many take this advice then they don’t die and have no plans for their own future.  When I was 16 I didn’t believe I would live to see 18.  I lived moment by…

Boiling Water

Some themes, poems, stories and experiences stick with me, mulling them over and over.  I take them out and reread them and consider their import….why do I keep thinking about some of these?  One such story is The Potato, the egg and Hot chocolate (I like it better than coffee in the original story.) Story…

Victor vs Victim

I saw myself as small, helpless, dominated, squashed….a worm with no back bone.  If anyone called me a victor I would look at them very strangely.  I did not see myself in a positive light.  Yet, I believed I could change.  I chose change, lots of change. As I changed, I started looking at different…

Helplessness

To me, this was the hardest to overcome but once I did, learning about my own power is a key element to my continued healing.  As long as I believed I was helpless, I could not believe I could be responsible for my change.  I needed to take back my power.  I needed to believe…

The person with the problem

My counselor was a bit of a maverick.  Every year I signed a paper saying that his counseling was not conventional and I was fully aware that he went off the beaten path of “accepted therapy.”  I’m so glad he did.  He approached my issues totally different than the other people I knew that visited…