My adult children scolded me for always apologizing, yes, I said I was sorry for saying sorry all the time. As a child I was blamed for making people angry, for anything bad happening, and a child does think the world revolves around them so therefore they should apologize for bad things happening. In divorce…
A perfect victim never fights back. I didn’t cut toxic people out of my life either. I just took it. Progress came when I encouraged my husband to find work in another state and move 1000 miles away. But my inner past came with me. I didn’t stand up for myself on anything. 22. “I…
I struggle with the fact that I suffer the consequences of another persons mistakes and evil choices. I get depressed thinking about what a mess my childhood was, most of my life I couldn’t even remember it. 21. “I have major issues with anxiety and depression because of my childhood. The biggest factor is…
I wanted to share this link and it posted the whole blog page. Blog stuff still surprises me from time to time. I found it shared on a Facebook page but wanted to get the original person credit. So here is the whole thing. http://ptsdconfessions.tumblr.com/post/159472319606/so-here-are-the-books-sorry-they-look-so-blue
More complex then it first appears. 20. “I have a hard time making eye contact with people. I look away a lot when I’m speaking. I get startled very easily and it takes me awhile to get my heart rate back to normal.” https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ For me, this is two separate issues. Startle response is extreme. …
I learned that emotional abuse is a part of every other abuse and causes the most lasting damage. A child’s emotions are tender and untried an abuser can do extensive damage at a young age. Toxic Parents is one of the best sources that describe the emotional abuse perpetuated by too many parents. 19. “My…
I struggled with reading as a child. I also had a really lousy teacher and almost every student in that class had a major set back. Trauma in the classroom makes it hard to learn. In high school, I changed it all. I worked hard taking difficult classes and graduated in the top 5% of…
*******Warning discussion of suicide******* I learned that I couldn’t continue watching the Star Wars series when they showed how Darth Vader came to be. If it feels too real, it is not entertainment. 17. “[I] won’t let anyone see the ‘bad’ side of myself.” https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ I don’t want people to see the residual…
Of the same problem….Trust. 14. “I avoid asking help from anyone because I don’t trust anyone. I believe if someone offers me a hand, there will always be something they [want to] ask in return. I have friends but I don’t have a best friend. I keep my distance from people. Automatically, my wall blocks…
I’m combining these next two things that I did. This was a monster hurdle because everyone loves someone that does everything for them, right? Yup, lots of rewards but sometimes at a terrible cost. The cost of myself, my relationships, my dreams, my needs didn’t exist. 12. “I feel the need to please everybody I…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 