Change is a choice

I am continuing on with the Maladaptive schema and the things that my counselor taught me to counter act each one.  There isn’t one of them that I can’t change when I understand that I have choices.  I need to learn more and work hard but not impossible. http://weareone-ruth.blogspot.com/2015/05/maladaptive-schemas.html Judy’s 7- 12 https://theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com/2015/05/13/roots-to-blossom-post-2/ 7.  VULNERABILITY…

Free coloring pages for Adults

One of the things that I found helpful was coloring.  I like a blank page and lots of colored pencils.  Sometimes I like lines and pictures to color.  I am exploring several brands of colored pencils to see which kind I like best.  The coloring books were at my first counselor’s office for the children…

Mental Blackouts

Every student has felt this when they look at their test and their brain refuses to relinquish any information about what they read the night before.  Some are short, like when yelling at your own child and you can’t remember their name.  Other kind last much longer; childhood, what childhood, I don’t remember any childhood. …

Emotional Blackouts

Another name for numbing, dissociation, loosing heart, deep depression, void…..similar to physical pain a person can only take so much emotional pain than the emotional heart shuts down.  One of the distressful symptoms of PTSD is this emotional shutting down.  The mind still works.  I felt aware of other people I just felt so shutout…

Physical blackouts

The first time I blacked out that I know of was on a family trip through Nevada.  Stopped at a gas station.  I forgot my purse in the bathroom.  I had my hand in the doorway when the door closed with my hand in the door.  It smashed across my knuckles.  I remember walking out…

Known Trigger

I avoided writing about Mother’s day on this blog.  I spent several posts on my other blog working out how to get through the day.  Mother’s day is a known trigger for me.  It has more land mines than a war zone mine field.  I know it is a problem for me.  I prepared for…

Fun Fun Fun

I work at a high school.  The end of the school year is in 2 weeks.  At our school, we encourage learning through doing.  Projects, huge projects, our students put on a fashion show last night.  The Saturday before about 400 students showed up at school dressed in Interview-for-a-job type clothes giving presentations on the…

Gym or no Gym…..

Not an easy question.  I’ve done both.  After I had cancer, my DH bought me a gym membership.  Thanks to the nifty machine that I would not have access to at home, I have full motion of my arm on the side I had surgery.  However, my contracted personal trainer had a minor melt down…

Physical Triad

Sleep – Nutrition – Exercise I hesitate writing this post because I am still struggling with this challenge.  It is an ongoing battle for me to take care of my physical body.  I was taught to be ashamed of my body.  I was taught I was selfish to have my most basics needs met, like…

Supplements

I was asked to share my list of supplements…..before I do, please, do your homework?  Supplements are added to a diet to aid in gaining optimal health.  People complain that there are so many contradictions, that’s easy, people are so different from each other.  What helps one person is useless for someone else.  I can…