My mind is spinning

My counselor left me in no doubt early in my counseling what he thought of my emotional understanding; he called me an emotional moron.  At the time, I felt a little put off, today I realized he was being kind.  I work at a school that teaches high school students what they need to know…

Take back your power

I spent a few weeks browsing PTSD web sites and Facebook pages.  I found I was getting frustrated with what appeared to me a feeling of fatalism coming across the pages.  The general tone is “PTSD took everything from me and now I have nothing except nightmares.”  The overall tone of hopelessness was depressing.  I…

Grounding Technique

I am always on the look out for ways to simplify and remember techniques that help with coping with PTSD.  On Facebook, Warrior’s Landing, the posted a picture of an eye, nose, ear, and hand.  At the top of the chart is: Grounding Exercise Name 3 things You see You smell You hear Your feel…

Time off

I would get terribly jealous when my counselor would take time off.  Not because he wouldn’t see me for awhile but because he could take time off.  PTSD is relentless.  Just when I think I might get a break something else body slams me.  But it is actually really helpful to try not to think…

Lumping it all together

One of the ongoing challenges I face every day is lumping a whole bunch of stuff together and labeling it PTSD.  Sometimes some of the symptoms are something else.  Sometimes I need to tackle one problem at a time.  A kitten plays with a yarn ball and turns it into a knotted mess.  If I…

Holiday triggers

I love holidays.  If I had my way, I would put up a Christmas tree in December and decorate for Christmas.  Then in January the tree would be covered with snow flakes.  February would be doused in hearts and cupids. (The minions played on the fact that cupid and stupid rhyme.) March would bedecked with…

Why not? (Part 2)

This was supposed to happen yesterday.  It didn’t.  I am paying for ignoring my body’s quiet plea to slow down a little.  I’m doing all sorts of good cool stuff but just a little too much (a lot too much.)  I keep trying to not allow PTSD to run my life but ignore it too…