Needs shiny armor and white horse. Feeling helpless as a child I wanted someone to rescue me. That same theme is echoed in many childhood stories of someone swooping in and saving the day – EVERYDAY. The Lone Ranger, Mighty Mouse, The Prince in Cinderella and Snow White, Lassie, all continue this theme of someone…
Is there a difference? Some people treat all shame as if it is toxic shame. I tried multiple times to read a book on shame. I was so confused within a few pages at it batted back and forth between shame and toxic shame. Dictionary result for shame – Google dictionary /SHām/ noun 1. a…
helpless. One of the symptoms of PTSD/CPTSD is a feeling of helplessness. However, my counselor taught me there are three kinds of helpless feelings. The first one is the type of helplessness that a small child has facing a raging adult. The child is helpless. No way they can take on the adult. This type…
The first time I was introduced to the inner child concept I didn’t get it. The second time I was introduced to the inner child concept I thought it was ridiculous. Yea. This was not gelling in my head. I was crowded enough I did not need one more insider. I lived with multiple personalities…
I am interrupting this series to share something awesome from Facebook group Healing Path to Complex PTSD Recovery You can ask to join this group and they will ask you some questions to consider if it is a good fit. I enjoy the group. Matt is one of the semi-retired admins that still plays a great…
Faith is a tricky thing. First off, not everyone believes it is the same thing. The computer dictionary shares this on faith: complete trust or confidence in someone or something; strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof. From the article: “Complex trauma survivors often endure…
Every time I get on the freeway my enhanced hyper-vigilance is rewarded. I am super aware of cars changing lanes, speed demons racing up from behind and near misses that keeps my hyper-vigilance on alert. It is exhausting being super aware all the time of every person around. I didn’t know it was unusual. I…
A minor annoying experience suddenly goes haywire with emotions that are over-the-top extreme flashback. I am no longer a confident adult but a cringing terrified/angry/helpless child. I know logically that the event did not warrant the level of emotion that washed over me like tsunami. Several of these stood out in my memory. When I…
Stopping or cutting off emotions. Dissociation/cutting off emotions is like freezing frogs….as soon as you thaw them they are hopping all over just the same. Why do I know this? I used dissociation to obliterate anger and other negative emotions. Sadly it did the same thing to love and happiness…only the emotions didn’t go away,…
Lonely in a crowd. Seeing everyone else chat and interact and feeling like I live in a glass bubble. The feeling of being different, out of step, longing to feel included…how can I see anything good in feeling so isolated and alone? I started my own group that included others. I did it, we had…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 