The last quote has two parts. Blaming myself is part 1, part 2 is the constant feeling I am not good enough. I’m not good enough parent, I’m not good enough photographer, I’m not good enough computer technician. The list goes on and on and on. I see myself as not enough. 23. “Blaming myself…
My adult children scolded me for always apologizing, yes, I said I was sorry for saying sorry all the time. As a child I was blamed for making people angry, for anything bad happening, and a child does think the world revolves around them so therefore they should apologize for bad things happening. In divorce…
I struggle with the fact that I suffer the consequences of another persons mistakes and evil choices. I get depressed thinking about what a mess my childhood was, most of my life I couldn’t even remember it. 21. “I have major issues with anxiety and depression because of my childhood. The biggest factor is…
I wanted to share this link and it posted the whole blog page. Blog stuff still surprises me from time to time. I found it shared on a Facebook page but wanted to get the original person credit. So here is the whole thing. http://ptsdconfessions.tumblr.com/post/159472319606/so-here-are-the-books-sorry-they-look-so-blue
More complex then it first appears. 20. “I have a hard time making eye contact with people. I look away a lot when I’m speaking. I get startled very easily and it takes me awhile to get my heart rate back to normal.” https://themighty.com/2017/06/childhood-emotional-abuse-adult-habits/ For me, this is two separate issues. Startle response is extreme. …
I learned that emotional abuse is a part of every other abuse and causes the most lasting damage. A child’s emotions are tender and untried an abuser can do extensive damage at a young age. Toxic Parents is one of the best sources that describe the emotional abuse perpetuated by too many parents. 19. “My…
I struggled with reading as a child. I also had a really lousy teacher and almost every student in that class had a major set back. Trauma in the classroom makes it hard to learn. In high school, I changed it all. I worked hard taking difficult classes and graduated in the top 5% of…
I’m combining these next two things that I did. This was a monster hurdle because everyone loves someone that does everything for them, right? Yup, lots of rewards but sometimes at a terrible cost. The cost of myself, my relationships, my dreams, my needs didn’t exist. 12. “I feel the need to please everybody I…
I know all caps is shouting on line but this next behavior would be all capitals. “I have trouble accepting any kind of love because growing up, it was always given with strings attached or used a tool for manipulation. I don’t trust that others have the capacity to love me unconditionally, so I hide…
Years ago I heard a joke that typifies how I used to respond to most situations. I had a dream that I died and went to the bad place…..I was given a choice of 3 different doors like Let’s Make a Deal. Behind door number one there was screeching and screaming. I shook my head.…
PTSD - Accepting, Coping, Thriving 